Whats About Me

It has been..............

2009-11-19T19:26:00.003+08:00

It has been raining lately. Cold and cozy weather. Though I doesnt like it. But I can feel the comfort around me. Especially when my baby is by my side. I have been so paranoid now adays. What exactly is happening to me?

I made my baby cried. With all my stupidity and selfish emotion that kept to myself. And that made my baby cried. Sorry baby. I am so sorry. I love you so much. I really cannot afford to lose you. That makes me worried so much for you. I'm so lost and......... I don't know.

My mind is all about you, baby. I don't like to sweet talk. This is all from the bottom of my heart. I have confidence in this relationship. Really I do. You are the one. The one and only.

Love you so much baby.

=)

2009-10-23T01:16:00.003+08:00

It has been so long since I last blog.

I'm very happy with my life now. Because I got someone being there for me. Though we have been together only for two months, but I can feel lots of love given from her. I really appreciate that. You willing to do what you not used to do for me. I will do whatever I think I can to make you happy.

We have alot of happy times together. But you would not know when I am pissed off. I do not wish to let you know I'm unhappy. Because I know if I show it out, you won't like it. So after awhile I will be fine. Sometimes you made me upset. Made me got angry. I will just keep quiet. I don't know why I behave like this. Not only to you. My ex-girlfriends as well as to most of my friends. This is the way I am. Whatever I do, I got my own reasons. Nobody should ask why. Because you people doesn't have to know.

Certains things can be controlled. But one insist on doing it, there am I.. I can be an attitude fuck. I am be a romance guy. I can be very fun at all times. But I also will be nasty if somebody got into my way.

I will give in all my love for you. I will try my best to bring you happiest. I love you so much baby. It's true. Hugs!!

HARD LIFE!

2009-08-21T20:07:00.003+08:00

Don't ever injure yourself !!

I'm having a hard time doing anything that need using my left hand. I can't carry heavy stuffs. I'm having difficulties typing. I'm having difficulties rotating my wrist. And I even have difficulties bathing!! DAMN! It's like my left hand so useless man! That's not cool !

There's some problem with my PPF. Have to go back to get it done by this coming Sunday. Sad. Tomorrow meeting my baby's day. =)

Although my left hand has problem doing anything, I'm 100% sure that my hand does'nt have any problem holding ur little hand. =)

=)

2009-08-20T20:57:00.003+08:00

I want a pass!!

Yesterday was on half day away from work. Met my baby and went to have lunch together. Wanted to go to the Sin Seh but it was closed. Might be going on the weekends. Dinner again with my sweet darling and back to home.

This morning went despatch to PNSD. Chris drove me around the turf club to look around. It's nice there. Nice ambience thou. Rich people goes there. All the horses are kept there. It's not cheap to manage a horse in Singapore I mean. at least hundred thousand just for one bloody horse! How I wish I have half of them. Back to office. Well.. Slept in the office for 1 hour. Woke up with a great headache. I guess I can't sleep in the office.

Went to book BTT at BBDC. It's on the 31/8. I WANT TO PASS MY BTT !! I cant take it anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PS: I love my baby. =)

Suprised for myself in the gym. =)

2009-08-18T19:36:00.002+08:00

Sprained my wrist!!

Oh great! I sprained my left wrist while I was in the gym. I carried too heavy weights I guess. And now, I can't even rotate my hand. Having difficulties in doing everything! Including typing. Damn! Anyway, today was very relax in the office. How I hope that this will stay throughout my NS life till I ORD. But this not gonna happen.

Biggest thing now. MONEY!! Money and money. Whatever! Don't wish to say anymore.

ANYWAY,

I love my darling. =)

Well............

2009-08-13T20:32:00.003+08:00

My life is like a full of scam.

What my friend always say. "My life is like a full of scam." Well, I think this applies to me as well. Everything doesn't goes on smoothly. Why is that so ? I can't find the answer. Have I did something wrong that causes me to have this kind of retribution? I guess so. Cause I believe that whatever things I should do my retributions come straight to me. Regardless of relationship or work. I doesn't like this kind of feeling. But what can I do ? Everything depends on ownself. I am so envy for alot of people. How do they cope up with these stuffs ? One day if I really have the chance I would want to interview them or do a survey. =)

Baby, I hope things will stay on like how we are now. But this is not the status I wish to have. If really one day you have changed towards me, remember that I will not blame you and please don't feel guilty about it. Because this is what I chose. So darling, trust yourself. =) I have nothing but I can do whatever that I can to make you feel happy and loved.

*hugs*

Hi..

2009-08-13T00:17:00.002+08:00

Hello people.

It has been so long since I last update. Well.. My office is giving me more and more problems. The freaking auditing! Nevermind. What do I have to blog.

Three things are giving me a big head. Firstly of course is about my work. Second is money and third is relationship. Other than these three things, nothing can give me any problems. After I enlisted, money is a big issue for me. I'm on debts now. How am i gonna survive with this little sum of amount given by the government when we do shits for them? Does this worth for all NSF ? Do we owe this country anything ? Ya, we are here to serve the country. But for this kind of allowance ? I really don't understand why should we involve in such things. I can simply earn much more than what I'm having now. My relationship it's kinda complicated and I don't wish to talk about it. =(

Quit drinking and smoke less.

2009-06-28T15:27:00.002+08:00

Quit drinking and smoke less!

Why does every of my friends doesn't believe that I will quit drinking. It's like.. Why can't it be possible for me to quit drinking and smoke less. But anyway, shall see!! The reason for me to quit drinking is because I got my own pocket burnt! So.......... No more alcohol !

Yesterday went back office in the morning. After that Left4Dead. Boring. Tomorrow got to reach office at 8am. Boredzation. Nowhere to go later. STAY AT HOME THENNNNNNNNNNN

=)

2009-06-25T10:42:00.002+08:00

Well.............. DSU !!

Did DSU for 3 shifts. Wasn't used to it on the first night. But.. the second day and third night which was yesterday quite good. Most relaxing one is at enquiry counter. Cause there wasn't much people coming to the station!! So relax! =)

Sighs.. Nothing much to say about anyway. Life really so .............. sighss........ nevermind.

BORED!!

2009-06-12T20:48:00.002+08:00

What a lifeeeeeeee.......

I've been doing fine recently. Went Zouk on Wednesday. IT SUCKS!! Packed with guys. Squeezed like f**k. Plus my friends left us without informing us. Because he's f**king drunk !! A$$h0l3 !! Then went home around 3am+

I don't want to talk anything about my work. Nothing to say about also. F**KED UP JOB! Anyway, borrowed "Li Xiao Long Chuan Qi" from my friend. Nice show. =) And I'm learning Wing Chun from my supervisor's friend. Yea! It's a great Kungfu. So.. yea. =D Li Xiao Long went through alot of obstacles. Suffered when he was young. He's the legend !! WOOOOOOO!!

hmm......

2009-06-07T02:54:00.002+08:00

Hmm..

Well.. Lazy blogging already. Every rountine is the same. Anyway, I have been suspended for going to gym. Still oweing the debts. So cannot access the gym. NSF life sucks. No money no talk. Everything talks about money. N$NT. So.. Won't be able to go to gym for 2weeks unless I have money now. It's ok. I take it as resting. My head supervisor going to stress me very soon. Pray that I can cope with everything in that office with all the bloody work.

Afternoon went swimming at Jalan Besar swimming pool. After that to West Coast have dinner. And went down to Mustafa. And went down to Loyang Dua Pek Gong to pray. So long never go already. After that. Nothing much. Came back home. BORING. Might be going to PS and Funan tomorrow.

Boringgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg...............................................

=)

2009-06-01T23:22:00.002+08:00

=)

One night just like that with one bowl of Fu Zhou Fishball Ramen and a can of Chrysanthemum Tea and 2 sticks of Marlboro Lights. I can go wherever I want or rather I can just not to stay at home. Rather be alone or with my good friends. I just don't want to stay at home. Why do I hate staying at home so much ? Whenever YOU and anyone of us is at home, fights and quarrel with start. And I hate listening to those of these nonsense. Why just can't they communicate properly than shouting here and there. I'm tired listening. *sighs*

Maybe from the way I feel. Some of you might not like me. I don't expect people to like the way I am. Cause this is the way I am. I don't need alot of friends. I have quite a few good friends that are really good to me. I'm fortunate to have them with me. I don't know what they like about me, but.. yea. Thanks for being there for me. I have a friend. In words we are good friends. But actually we're not. Why do I say so. There are many reasons behind it. So good luck people. Hope you people live good, stay good and feel good. =)

shag.........

2009-05-31T21:18:00.002+08:00

Freaking shag !!

Seriously I hate duties!! I hate doing audit !! S*i*..! Basically, friday night went out. Forgotten where I went to. But reach home and sleep at 4am. Woke up 0530 and f**k off to office. Stayed till 11am and f**k back home. Met my friends. Then blah blah blah...... my memory is getting from bad to worst. Anyway, what for remember so much things. Right? =)

YESTERDAY! ( SATURDAY ) & TODAY! ( SUNDAY )

Yesterday.. was saturday. Met my friends right after I finished my work. Met them at Chinatown. Then blah blah blah.. What did I do yesterday.. forgot already. Don't want to think so much. What for making myself to think so much. I'M DAMN LAZY NOW !! TIRED !!
And same rountine. Reached home and sleep at 4am. Woke up at 0530. OFF TO THE BLOODY OFFICE !! worked till 11. Came back home COMA ! Woke up at around 1930. Ate dinner. Tomorrow have to reach office at 8am. So might be sleeping soon. FUCK !! SO EARLY FOR WHAT.. ARSEHOLES!! -.-"

Everybody.......

2009-05-28T21:00:00.003+08:00

SERIOUSLY. EVERYBODY SUCKS!!
SERIOUSLY. EVERY WORK SUCKS!!
SERIOUSLY. EVERYTHING SUCKS!!

ULTIMATELY. NOTHING IS GOOD !!

F**K OFF EVERYONE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BYE!! GET A F**KING LIFE MAN!

Headache.

2009-05-27T19:02:00.002+08:00

Headache, feeling of vomitting = PREGNANT ?!

Reached office at 0730hours. I was freaking tired. Stomach hurt. And giddy.. Maybe because I'm too tired already. That's why ? And.. Feeling like vomitting. Sighss.. Today quite slack. Went OPA to do some stuff. Smoked in the hall. Went back to division and played some mini games on the computer. Then off I go. Came back home. The two idiot dogs mess up the kitchen. -.-" Full of shit and urine plus my dog brought down my little dustbin from the basin and messed the whole floor. Well.. cleared already.. Friday + Saturday + Sunday = 0700 - 1430 hours. SHAG !! 7AM!! YOU IMAGINE !! -.-"

STRESS!!

2009-05-26T22:18:00.002+08:00

STRESS !!

Today.. STRESS !! Almost went amok in the office !! MY WORK WILL BE SO F**KING STRESS FOR THE REST OF MY 1YEAR 7MONTHS !! DAMN ITTTTTTTTTT !! What the **** !!

ANYWAY, after work went Lot1 to find my ex-colleague. Had dinner at Mcdonal's. Chit chat awhile. Then home sweet home. Tomorrow 0800hours have to be in the office. Sighs. Because of those f**king NSman !! F**K OFF MAN !! Coming weekend having deployment. Not sure if I'm part of it. OK.. BORING LIFE !

Alright..

2009-05-24T13:01:00.002+08:00

Alright......

Well.. Yesterday was Saturday. Weekends for me passed very fast. Why. Time doesn't let you enjoy too much. It only comes to work then the time will pass by slower. It's like torturing the hell out of you. Well.. Yesterday after gym went to meet my friends. They came to fetch me. Went Newtown. The two fat ass ate like nobody's business. -.-" Then headed to Punggol actually was to find my friend's friends. But we cant find their vehical and I don't know what's the reason why he don't want to call his friend. Then fetch the two fat arse back home. Headed to me and my friends' usual place. Shall stop here. No further information shall be given. =D

Why am I such a failure in everything. I always repeat this question to myself. Why ? Am I that irritating or what ? Or which part of me doesn't perform well ? Or am I not good enough ? I keep asking myself this question. Sometimes I also ask people this question. But they can't answer me. Well, I guess I shall not irritate you anymore. But when you call my name, I will be there.

Let me be alone. =(

Shag..

2009-05-23T16:42:00.002+08:00

Shaggggggg

Had diarrhea on thursday night till friday. Was suffering like nobody's business.. Yesterday after work went to met My friends at Orchard first. Headed to Cuppage to have dinner. Went for a movie after that. Watched Angel and Demon. At the beginning was quite boring. But in the end then.. yea.. Laughs.. Watched till 0230. Went to have "supper". Then home sweet home.

Just woke up not long ago. Going gym later..

BORING !!!!!!!!!!

Fucking bastard..

2009-05-20T20:54:00.003+08:00

Fucking bastard ***** ****..

Alright.. Today at office too slack already. Cause I got nothing to do. They haven't teach me yet. And his so busy. So.. slack around lor. Didn't went to the gym today. My muscle is so painful. =( GETTING BIGGER MUSCLES! So... stayed at home.

There's this bastard living in Singapore but originally came from Taiwan. Started a company few years ago. My mummy worked for him for 4years. Now, that f**king bastard bite her hard. Insult people's mother. Insulted her badly. Not my mummy of course. She's my mummy's colleague. IF HE F**KING INSULT MY MOTHER. I GIVE HIM HELL. Anyway, He's really a bad guy. Good at acting!! Found a hometown partner to work for him. And Kick all old birds away. DON'T BELIEVE IN THIS F**KING BEAST! Why didn't he died eariler. Hope his company will close down as soon as possible. AND I LOVE CURSING PEOPLE!!

Everything has changed.

2009-05-19T21:00:00.008+08:00

Everything has changed.

What happened ? Why does things change so easily ? In relationship ? Family ? Money ? Everything changes. I doesn't want to say names. Why they voice out so loudly whenever they want ? Do they think of how I feel ? Or are they have problems troubling them ? But do they think of how I feels ? Am I a punching bag for them ? I'm a failure in everything. In relationship and all. There's no one else that will stand by me every moment whenever I need her. No one for me to dote. After enlisted to NS. My income has gone down alot. No part time for me. Can't find any part time now. No jobs for me. My NS allowance only $420. How am I going to live on with this kind of money ? Everybody is losing job now. What has this world becoming into ? GOD. Please tell me. I pray everyday. Hoping that my family would live happily. Why aren't we close to each other from young ? You changed my mood the moment I sees you. Why ? Is it because of how you treated me when I was small ? Is this the reason why I hated you so much ? I hardly talk to my family members. We aren't close at all. Maybe they are quite traditional that's why we don't communicate much ? We don't have common things to talk about. What happened ? When I see my friend's family so close to each other. You know the feeling ? When I see those family on tv so happily. You know the feeling ? Nobody can help. Including the God. Is this fair ? Two things that can kill everyone. NS and money. This two is enough to kill people. But what can we do ? Earn ? Where and how to ? Live happily ? How and where to start ? All this are so stressing me. Having headache everyday. This is killing me.

FCUKED UP!!

2009-05-19T20:08:00.002+08:00

FCUKED UP !!

FCUKED UP !! Today went to division. After THREE times of interview. They choose me to be their secretary. F**K YOU, YOU KNOW?! IT'S SO F**KING STRESS YOU KNOW?! I was like having headache just now. Now freaking tired. NEVER HARD I SIT IN A OFFICE AND AFTER KNOCK OFF FEELING SO FUCKING TIRED !! I rather go front line than being a SA. FUCK LAH!! F**king no mood. PISSED! Have to bear with it for 1year 7months. Tomorrow training starts. KILL ME PLEASE!!

Happy Birdday to you!

2009-05-18T14:25:00.002+08:00

Happy birdday to you!!

Yesterday went drinking again. =) Went to have dinner at Everton Road. After that went to fetch 2 friends. Headed to Vivo City. Unfortunately Powerhouse didn't open ?? Werid. Cant get in Dragonfly. So went to Windsor!! Stayed there about 1hour ? Then to Royal Club.. 3am went home!! Reach home 4am. I can't sleep till 0530. What the f**k.

Woke up at 7am. Luckily today release damn early. 1130 say bye bye to HTA. Went there did a quiz and do a survey. I felt asleep while reading halfway. Or rather say that I wanted to sleep. And the OC told me that don't pray. Want pray wait till finish reading the document then pray. -.-" So lame.

Gym later. Waiting for Mcdonal's now. I'M SO FREAKING TIRED !!

Boozer

2009-05-16T18:04:00.002+08:00

Happy and enjoy.

Alright, yesterday after my course.. Went back home.. Monday will be my last day of course!! Then go to divison. Sighs.. Anyway, hope I will enjoy there. =) And.. Meet few friends.. Went to have dinner at erm.. I don't know what place. Forgotten already. Then off to Boozer.. Stayed till 3am+. Played Dai Dee. No alcohol to gamble. But there's green tea!! Luckily I'm not the one who drink it.

Gym later.. TRAIN HARD!!

I don't know who you are talking about. Maybe just because you are shy. But my quote is about you. I don't dare to confess anything now. Because I am not confirm with everything. Nevermind. =)

They eat eggs!

2009-05-14T17:27:00.002+08:00

They eat eggs!!

TODAY, nothing much actually. Went cafe to have my lunch. Packed Laksa for two of my ex squadmates. Smuggle food to the coy. Good friend right. Then went back to lecture threate.

Then reached home when I open the kitchen door.. I SAW EGGS ON THE FLOOR! My dogs eat eggs!! Damn it. This is the don't know how many times already. RAW EGGS. DIE THE BOTH OF YOU. -.-" Watching 100% Entertainment. My poor idol, Xiao Zhu. Sighss..

Back !

2009-05-13T17:34:00.002+08:00

Back to gym!

Alright.. Today is a good day. =) Reason : Released early! Nothing much. Just feeling like a big shot in HTA. =D So.. yea.

Went Lot1 for awhile. Back home.. Gym later. It has been 5 months seen I last went to gym!! STEVEN ! IM BACK !!

What is the feeling for me now ? How do I feel for you ? What ? How ? When ? QUESTION MARKS ???

alright...

2009-05-12T21:22:00.002+08:00

Sighss...

Alright.. Posted to division. But still not sure which is my real posting. Anyway, I got what I should need it. So..... yea. =D

Went back HTA for some f*cking course. Damn it man. What for do we still need courses. There's good and bad i supposed. And... Nothing much. This evening should leave HTA early. But 2 buggers did something totally unacceptable. FUCK THEM !! Idiots. When in training they are the ones who cause trouble. NOW ALSO CAUSE TROUBLE. FUCK U LAH !! Arseholes..

Do I have another chance to fall in love with a girl ? Which girl will give me this a chance to dote her and be nice to her ? Is there ever a chance ? Sighs.. Why are there so many problems surrounding me ? Why are there so much question marks ? Sighs.. If I cannot find out the answer myself, let fate decide then. I believe god is fair to all of us. So... Will I have a chance to fall in love again ?

Secretary

2009-05-11T19:33:00.002+08:00

Soon I will be a secretary.

Though soon I will be a secretary, but I still hope that my colleagues won't be fucked up. Like will want to cause you into trouble those kind. Anyway, I still not offical posted to my "real" division. BUT !! I DUN WANT TO SAY THE PLEDGE AND HAVE INPSECTION AND ALL THOSE SHIT!! -.-"

Got back home around 7pm. Haven had my dinner.. Well.. nvm.. Shall think of a way then. TATA!

Slack~

2009-05-10T01:01:00.002+08:00

Chill and Slack...........

Today... slept till 12pm+ hmm.. Nothing much.. At night went dinner with parents.. After that meet up with some friends.. Went Lorong Chencharu.. Quite nice place.. Slack there.. Hmm.. Then came back.. I just love slacking around ~~

Tomorrow is Mothers' Day. I got nothing for her. Cause no money. Sighs.. What a son am I. Anyway, as long as I don't give her any problems and troubles, I think that's the biggest present for her. I wish all the mothers around the world live happily. Good health.

I guess I will be lonely till the day I die. As in I will be single. So..... yea. Good luck people!

Shiok!!

2009-05-06T22:10:00.006+08:00

SHIOK OF THE NIGHT.

Yesterday was my Passing Out Parade. Pretty successful. But had to stand for 1hour+. Anyway, after my POP went to have dinner with my daddy and brother. Thanks bro, though you are sick but you managed to be there. =)

After dinner. Guess what.. Drinking time!! With a couple of my friends. The Icon. Stayed ther till they are closed. And went Bukit Gombak to have my so-called "breakfast" Then went to friend's house to camp awhile but something happened........... I shall not say. And it's not a very good thing. Pray that nothing will happen.

Reached home 6am. Used the computer for awhile and bathed. Went back to the camp this morning.. Guess what I did.. SLEEP THERE!! FUCK !? GO THERE TO SLEEP AND GO HOME ?! But the main purpose is to return our "T"hrash pass. I'm not longer a "T". Call me SC Sze Tho! Slept there till 1230 and left the damn bloody place.

Headed to Lot1 to have lunch. Cause I didn't had my lunch at the Mess. Had Long John Silver. Went to find my ex-colleage and HERE I AM.

NO MONEY NO TALK!! SO SAD ! Any kind souls generous enough to donate some money to this poor little NSF ? =( Laughs...... and lastly, This is my squad photo and my bunk photo.

Squad 59

Bunk 21

POP LOH !!

2009-05-06T22:10:00.003+08:00

POP LOH !!

One good thing about POP. Need not stay in that freaking prison. And need not see all the fucking instructors. One bad thing. I posted to Delta Division as a SA !! FUCK !! HOPEFULLY THEY ARE ALL FRIENDLY. =D

Today's POP dinner was like fucked up. It's like.. no any special meal. freak. Was so boring and hot there in that freaking Mess. Only one performance was great. By one of the FI. We were like cheering and cheering like hooligans. Nobody's business. Laughs!! After the dinner. Went around the Coy shout POP LOH POP LOH.. They must be feeling WHAT THE FUCK SIAL. But they joined the fun together. Tomorrow back to HTA at 8am. So.. ya. =D

Monday start to work.. SIGHSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

Ok fine.. I know something already. That's it. When you need help and you need someone, I'm always there. When I need you people to be there. No one comes. Great right. =)

ehhhhhh

2009-05-03T02:36:00.002+08:00

Whole day at home!!

Ok.. Now 0240. Sunday. Yesterday, saturday. Saturday, Afternoon went Jurong East MRT to pass some stuffs to friend. Then went Bukit Gombak. Had lunch. Then stayed at friend's house till evening. Doesn't know where to go. In the end went to Hong Kah North CC. Stayed awhile and dinner with parents. Reached back home played FM(Football Manager). Then....... watch tv.. Played Chain RXN. NOTHING NOW!!

Booking in at night. What the freak. Should I take MC ?! Or not ? DON'T KNOW!!

New prediction. 2013 End Of The World.

2009-05-01T20:18:00.003+08:00

End Of The World.

Whole day at home. Sleep and sleep. Now feeling so energetic. Bored ! NO MONEY NO TALK.

I have been thinking alot when I'm at home................

ANYWAY,

New prediction. 2013 end of the world. Is it true ? Previous predict by professional that 2000 the earth will "vanished". Not as in the earth really disappear. Will we be in another planet or rather earth after our reincarnation? Anyway ... END OF THE WORLD. Everybody will die!! AND, we've already survived for another 9 years.. =)

So what if it is really end of the world. You cant do anything about it.

Why does we have so much neglects in our life. Why can't we live happily. Nothing is perfect. Live with no regrets. But... What actually can we satisfied ourselves. What I can say is that.. live with what we have now. We are much more fortunate than those who are not.
give more respect to the elderly. They do really care for you. Please do not take back to them, scold them, disrespect them. If one day they are not around. You will regret for life.

People, please watch a HongKong movie hmm.. the actor acting as FatCat and another one is Little Cheng. That is a very very meaningful show.

Girl, can I know how are you doing recently ? What are you busy with ? Really so busy till you cant even text me ? Do you know I miss you very much ? Seriously you are the only one that made me feel so in love with you. Where are you ? Are you avoiding me ? Sighs..

I know that we will not be together for now and ever. Can I still find another girl that let me have this kind of feeling for her ? I believe that once you are deeply in love with a girl, it's hard for you to find another same girl and have the deep feeling for the girl. So... I do not know.

Tears of the earth.

MC

2009-04-29T11:28:00.004+08:00

MC again..

Ok.. Monday and Tuesday past. WEDNESDAY!! TODAY. Tuesday night went MO to see doctor. They refer me to hospital. A good choice and also a bad choice. But.. since they ask me to go hospital, why not? I had Headache, sore eye, sore throat and runny nose. Reached hospital at 2330. Guess what time I left.. NEXT DAY MORNING !! 4am+ Zzz.. And something happened I did in NUH saved my life. =D And I was given 3 days of MC. That's why I am here.

After seeing doctor, waited for van to come. Went back HTA sleep ! Until 0830 went to see OC. And home sweet home !!

I have been thinking of you. Why WHY WHY !?

POP Drill

2009-04-26T12:51:00.002+08:00

POP Drills........

POP drills and POP drills. Drills drills drills.. Good. Can tan myself. Nothing much recently. Went out on friday. Went to Bukit Timah for Lan games till 3am+. Yesterday went Suntec. And first ever time watch soccer at one of the kopitiam. Laughs. They were shouting like nobody's business.

I have been waited for you since the last time. I understand what you are thinking. Hopefully you will not lose contact with me. You need me please call me. I will be there for you whenever I can. sighss.. =(

yawn!!

2009-04-18T21:57:00.001+08:00

YAWN !!

Ate one sleeping pill this morning at 5am+. Guess what, I slept till 5pm!! I'm still feeling so sleepy now.. YAWN~~ sighs.. No where to go. BORED STAYING AT HOME !!

Book in tomorrow night. SIAN HALF ! Sighs..

hmm..

2009-04-15T00:39:00.003+08:00

Another day over!!

This afternoon went Chinatown with my friend. He went for interview. After that went eat around that area. Was thinking where to go. Ended up went to Plaza Singapura. Stayed there till 5plus. Went Liang Courts to find another friend. After which went Party World.. Sang till 2330!! Walked all the way to Far East just to get a packet of cigar. Laughs. Took cab back.. HUNGRY !!

Hopefully tomorrow I can get MC !! I don't wanna go back tomorrow.. I wanna go back on Sunday!! =D

STRESSED!

2009-04-14T02:06:00.002+08:00

STRESSED !!

Something really stressing me now.. MY PART TIME JOB !! FREAK ! May I will go back to look for that old lady. Zzz! Nevermind. Hopefully I can get a part time with good pay. OH MY !!

My mind isn't set to the right mind. What the freak am I thinking ? I need the right person!

I was just...

2009-04-12T11:47:00.002+08:00

Changed..

Yesterday night went ShiSha with some of my friends. That was my first time ShiSha-ing. Not a bad experience. Went off to Boat Quay around 10pm+ after our dinner at Bugis. Started drinking. Saw quite a few friends there. And was almost dead. This month no more drinking for me. Why ? BROKE !! Anyway, that's good also. Every week drink. This gonna take away my life very soon. Time for break. Hope I can do it.

Something happened!!! He was so fucking drunk. This was the first ever time I saw him like this. I almost put my fist on him. What happened ? Under alot of stress ? Why cant you tell me. You wasn't like this. I don't know what changed you.

Later going to catch a movie at Cineleisure. =) Hope we enjoy each other's accompany.

hangover

2009-04-10T18:20:00.003+08:00

Hangover!

Boat Quay yesterday. =) Drank from 1am till 4am. Kind of hangover now. Slept at 5am+. Woke up at 9am+. What the hell. Went back to sleep again till 1+ in the afternoon. Thinking gonna stay at home and rot. BORED !

POP LOH

2009-04-09T18:37:00.003+08:00

POP LOH!!

All my exams passed. 3 more weeks to POP !! Excited about which unit I will be posted to. Hopefully not those units I doesn't like. Nothing much about this week. Freaking relax. Today is Thursday. Tomorrow is Public Holiday. And have a block leave until next wednesday. Maybe will malinger until Sunday. Shall see how. Not sure what plannings I have for this coming week. Anyway, ENJOY!!

I have something in mind that wanna say to you face to face. But I don't think I will have the chance to do that. Anyway, it's ok. You already have someone in mind. And I don't think I will get any chance. I really wish that you will be at the parade but I don't think you will be there. Because I know you will feel awkward. Anyway, we are still very good friends. CHEERS! ;D

Touched by DSP.

2009-04-04T01:42:00.002+08:00

Touched by our DSP.

Remembered that our company still owe our Coy Commander 4000 push ups. Not sure who is the one who complaint. Trainees complaint to the OC ( Officer In Charge ). OC complain to DSP. DSP = In charge of all the OC. And.. DSP thought that all this push ups are unacceptable. How can we finish all this push ups. Too much already. Our training are different from the army. So.. Yea. =)

My OC told my squad that our DSP going to retire because of the stressed he got. Don't know what is the real reason. Anyway. About this week, relax week. I failed my IF (Immediate Failure) questions. Fail one consider failed ! But just have to re-take the 10 questions. So not too bad. Coming Monday is our Re-Test. Wish me good luck!

PT and PT and more PT. F**k the intructors. I fall out. I don't want to do the PT. It's like the first month we enlist. What the FISH ?! We going to POP soon. Come on man.

This evening, before we book out. Our DSP came to our Coy. He said. What we owe, we must pay. But pay with reasonable amount. We owe our Coy Commander 4000 push ups, we paid him back today. We have around 400 trainees in the Coy. Each of us only have to do 10 push ups. Oh my. WE WERE ALL TOUCHED ! DSP doesn't want us to suffer. Hopefully the others don't repeat the same mistakes again since the DSP helped us so much. =)

BORED !! NO MONEY NO TALK !!

..

2009-03-27T19:28:00.002+08:00

Bad and a Good week

Monday wasn't a good week. 9pm did pumpings till 10pm. 12mn did punpings till 1245. just wtf man. they are taking our life out man!! Tuesday got pump by the freaking Coy Commander. And they got fucked by our DSP. VERY GOOD~~ But next week gonna suffer. Sighs. No money already.. SO SAD !!

Exam next week. STRESSED !! PASS~!! LEFT LAW EXAM TO POP !!

Sunday

2009-03-22T15:09:00.003+08:00

It's Sunday again..

Sunday... Boring night for me again... Gonna book in at 1945Hrs. After the Fit Squad come in on April, I will be booking in at 2100Hrs. But.. I wanna get out of the HTA on MAY !! Pass all my exams just with one try. No re-take please!!

You told me not to malinger. But in end. You are the one who keep doing it. From the past till now. You didn't stick to whatever you advise others to do. What does this means? You can have alot of reasons. But those are just excuses. You are taking me for granted. Who am I to you. Friend? Good friend? Best friend? To you I'm your BEST friend. But the truth is, You will only come to me when you are in some kind of trouble. Though we have known each other for very long, but this is the feeling you gave me.

NS is a stress for me.

nearer and nearer

2009-03-21T13:27:00.002+08:00

It's getting nearer and nearer..........

Time bomb. 2 weeks to explosion. Shall not say what it is. Well.. This week was like....... hell for a few days. But.. Still can take it. =) And... Friday book out. Went our with two of my camp friends. Wanted to play pool. But.. FULL !! Bloody fool. MS full.. Bugis full. Ok. Go sit down and chat. 11pm meet up with other friends. Something great happened and wasted our time. Went Arena. Too ex. Laughs! Went Boat Quay in the end. 0430 went home. Sleep till 1230. Bored. Tomorrow book in again. Fucked up.

Afraid is something I hated the most. Afraid of this. Afraid of that. Making me stress. Life still has to go on. Can we change fate. Yes. But how? The problem is lying on you. DEAD~

Bored.

2009-03-14T23:43:00.002+08:00

Boredddddd...

Due to sleep so "early" today. I slept till 3pm. Stayed at home. Played FM. At night went JB to have dinner with family. No plans for today. So stay at home. =) Watched soccer at home.. LIVERPOOL !!! Man Utd 1 - 4 Liverpool

Woohoo!! Tomorrow night book in.. BORED... SUCKS.. NS SUCKS!!

hmm..

2009-03-14T15:20:00.002+08:00

Boring ...

After book out.. Went back home.. As usual. Do my laundry. Had a haircut for my friend. Then.. Went Boat Quay.. Boring. Sat there for three hours but only drank 2 glass of alcohol? Went Discovery Bar to have tower of beer. The beer sucks. Zzz!! Went back boat quay don't know for what. Then went back home in the morning. Slept at 7am. Woke up at 3pm. BORING !! What a night I had yesterday. =) Didn't really drink much. Boring day.

What I have been thinking about. It's impossible. Forget about it. This is life. Ciaos.

woohoo~

2009-03-08T11:58:00.002+08:00

Finally!! Handphone is back!

Yesterday went Causeway Point to collect back my e65. Finally got back my phone. No.. It's my camera phone. Went friend's house. Went to eat. Watched Hostel. Cool show. =D Boring. No money no talk.. Everything talks about money. The rule of the game. "No money please Fuck Off." Sad.. So........ I'm fucking off.

Easy week

2009-03-06T19:36:00.003+08:00

Easy week has over!

This week was a relax week for me. Cause I'm not in the demo squad. So I relax one corner while they are practicing with their drills. Hmm. Nothing much. This week only had one class lesson. As my OC was oversea and nobody took over our class. So yea.. RELAXED !! But.. IT'S OVER !!

Today before book out. Surprised. Exercise first before booking out. =) Crazy.. CRAZY !! IM IMMUNE TO IT !! ARGH. Not sure going out not.. BORED. NO MONEY NO TALK. =)

Seriously. I don't know what to say. I'm not sure what I am thinking. I miss you. I miss you badly. =/

sighss

2009-02-27T19:25:00.006+08:00

Something happened...

Basically, this week was not a very good week for me. Not in the NS. But my own problems. I shall not say what happened. And.. Anyway, my squad will be the squad doing demo for the next intake. To show the parents how Police drill works. How life in HTA will be. But of course. Good things will appear in their eyes. Bad things happen behind all the parents. You get what I mean. Tsk. And... I will not be in the first demo squad. Cause I have been eliminated. And that's a good news for me. The instructor said I didn't perform my drills well. So be it. Who cares about the demo. Laughs..

Maybe I will be staying at home. And I wanna learn mixing of songs. My friend learning. I wanted to learn since when I was in secondary school. No chance to learn. So my friend will help me ask whether I can join them. Hopefully can. It will be damn fun. =D

Things not going smooth for me the past few days. Something really troubled me. Not about money, not about woman. But I have to be strong. I doesn't want to show people my weak side of me. I will change from today onwards. You people will see a new Sze Tho! =)

hello!

2009-02-20T19:58:00.002+08:00

How many weeks I haven't been blogging??

Basically, I'm just too lazy to blog every of my book out. Either is I forgot to blog or I'm lazy. What's more is that my computer is going to the grave. Gonna say farewell to my CPU soon. =) R.I.P sweet.

Nothing much about my NS life. The same old pattern. Nothing to blog about. Fucked up I can say. Laughs. my GST is so fucking less. FUCK MAN. But at least better than nothing. Drink every week I book out. Boring life. Anyway, hopefully I can get the unit I want to go. K9 !! PLEASE. I DON'T WANT TO FAIL MY EXAMS!! AHHHHHHHHH!

I'm all alone now. Friends are all my love ones. Just be what I am. Who I am. No relationship for me. CHEERS!

...

2009-02-06T20:06:00.002+08:00

Beautiful week..

2nd class for range.. 77 points. Not really good. But it's already the end of the lesson. Too bad. But who cares. As long as I don't fail good enough. On light duty the whole week. The feeling was so shiok !! Gonna take ligh duty again. Tsk!! Didn't take my second IPPT. Cause I'm on light duty. Heck care lah.. My life in that fucking prison = Heck Care.

After book out went to have dinner at Lot1. Not sure what time I gonna go out. No plans yet. SIGHS..

How long do I have to wait. I did what I wasn't supposed to do. Take care.

Cremation

2009-02-01T17:03:00.002+08:00

Cremation

Today's my uncle farewell day. Went to Mandai for cremation. I think that the priest is not experience enough. I don't know what he was talking about. Abit like no link to the death. While the priest is talking. Guess what. My father is sleeping. -.-" Laughs. By the way, the crematorium is fucking cold !!
Farewell my beloved uncle.

Booking in soon. 2 hours later. Sighs.. I am suspecting that my left foot had crack due to the sprain did on friday afternoon. Swollen. But still can walk. Just cant touch and bang my left foot. Shall see how on these few days. Have a good day everybody!

I'm feeling shag now. No mood in everything. SUCKS

relax but not relax.

2009-01-30T20:02:00.003+08:00

Relax but not relax... Hm..

Sad to say. The moment I came home. I heard a very terrible news from my daddy. My uncle passed away this morning. Sickness cause : Heart Attack.
His old. He had sickness with him. Rest In Peace.

Life is so unpredictable. You will never know what's gonna happen tomorrow. Enjoy as much as you can now. Unless it's too late to enjoy. So... Enjoy every moment dudes!!

Anyway, this week was a relaxing week. In the other hand, it's not rather a good week. Cause.. TOO BORED !!! My ranging. Total of 4 frames we did. 1st frame 38points. 2nd frame 35 points 3rd frame forgotten. 4th frame 89points! From bad to good. Hope I can do better in my 5th and 6th frame!! Cheers! I sprained my foot. Fuck care lahx. Fucking Dennis. Go and die lahx.. bastard.

The feelings came back. Great. Hope the wish will come true. Enjoy every moment of our life.

SS

2009-01-27T14:30:00.002+08:00

Sabai Sabai~

Sabai Sabai. Kap Kap Kap.. Yesterday night cousin fetch me to Taman Jurong to find my friend. Went to drink again~ This will be the last shortest week already. No more holidays coming up. OH !! THAT'S NOT COOL.. Slept at 0500. This is the time I wake up when I'm in camp. Civilian life is so damn fucking shiok!

Going back at 1900. BACK TO MY PRISON WITH LOTS OF BASTARDS INSIDE.

What are we now ? More than friends ? I'm not sure. What's the point for bothering myself with all these kinda stuff. I start to imagine alot of things the moment I think back.

Chinese New Year

2009-01-26T15:42:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year !!

Today is the first day of Chinese New Year. Woke up at 8am. Left house to relatives' house at 0830. Almost finished visiting most of the houses already. Went to 5 houses ?? Getting lesser and lesser. That also means my Ang Bao is getting lesser and lesser! ROAR~ Nevermind. It's ok. Left one more to visit later. Not sure what time going. I was so tired !! Oh gosh.

all day long

2009-01-25T14:45:00.002+08:00

Shop all day..

From afternoon till night was out shopping.. This is the first ever time I shop for one freaking day for new year clothes and first ever freaking time I shop for so long.. So damn freaking tired. All day long at Orchard. At night went Jurong Point and have dinner there.

Left 4 Dead at Bukit Timah till 0230. Came back home ZZZZZZ...

The way I heard you shout.. I can guarantee you that you will regret in your life next time. Unless you are damn freaking heartless or maybe it's just ok for you.

wad a day

2009-01-24T10:19:00.002+08:00

Saturday~

Went to friend's birthday at Segar Road. Was forced to play basketball with them. But I didn't want to sweat myself. 2200+ went to Purvis Street to chill awhile. After that wanted to go to Sabai Sabai. But one cant go in. So never go anywhere. Went back to my friend's birthday. Stayed until 4am. Home sweet home.

Later going to town. Get new year clothings. Wasn't sure what to buy yet as my cash is quite tight. God of fortune!! WHERE ARE YOU ? I LOVE U SO MUCH!! Drop me some money p-r-e-a-s-e!! Going club tonight. Not sure where to go. Shall decide later.

I think I have get myself clear. I know what I want. And I know what to do.

slack.... SLACK !

2009-01-23T19:08:00.003+08:00

Slack and slack..

This whole week was quite slacking at HTA. Saw people P.O.P. Kinda sad. Laughs. That's normal ok!! And.. Nothing much to say about. Anyway. Chinese New Year is just few days later. So only to book in on tuesday night. CHEERS!

Gonna go friend's birthday. Nothing sure going where after that. Shall see how.

Hope everyone got their wish granted for this new year. Do smoothly in everything. From bad to become good. Good to become good-est. Earn more more MONEY !! and.... HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !
YAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM............
SHENGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.............

Saturday

2009-01-18T15:13:00.003+08:00

Phuture..

Saturday Zouk had an event. Gatsby dancing event. 1st prize will get to go to Tokyo for competition. Yesterday was like 8 participants. Anyway, Yesterday Phuture was like more guys or rather gays than ladies. Laughs. Was pushed here and there. Oh gosh. Reached home 5am+

Woke up. Went to gym awhile. My neck is fcuking pain when I look down. AR! And had a haircut for mummy. Now I going to get my lunch. Go back to my jail soon. ENJOY!!

drink DRINK!

2009-01-17T19:11:00.002+08:00

BOOK OUT !! DRINK !

Book out day.. Time for drink. Every weekend drink. WTF. My friend said me.. "WOW, every book out you want drink.. No good you know." Of course I know. Other than drinking I don't know what to do. Song bo..

Went Cine at night. They wanna have their dinner. Then headed to Boat Quay. We saw some friends. And asked them to join. We went home damn fucking early. at 0630. Good Morning!! Reached home. Accompanied my friend to Polyclinic. He took MC and not going to work today. Went to have breakfast-cum-lunch. I went to bought my stuff to bring back to camp. And back home to sleep.

Just woke up not long ago. Might be going to Phuture? Not sure what time I will be going. Got the urge. And.. That's it. Tomorrow is a Sunday. It's my book in day. So fast. Chinese New Year is just next week. HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEOPLE!

Just don't fucking care about me. Don't fucking care about what I do. Mind your damn fucking business. And fuck off. You will want to come if you want. I don't know what do you treat me as. But just fuck off.

Another book out day.

2009-01-16T20:11:00.003+08:00

Another book out day !

It's another book out day!! This week kinda slack at HTA. I also don't know why. Just think so. And.. Something's great.. Last time was my right ankle hurt.. Now is my left ankle hurt. Now I can feel the sharp pain. Oh man. Well.. I guess.. The only medicine to cure my ankle is ALCOHOL ! Maybe gonna go drinking later. Not sure.

I guarantee this.. You are playing the hell outta me. So... I will be myself. Be what I am. And doesn't want to think of anything else. Enjoy my fucking life. I will do whatever I can or I want.

Self PT.

2009-01-10T12:21:00.002+08:00

PT PT PT.. TRAIN!

Morning went jogging at 7am. Jog from my house to my friend's house at Bukit Panjang (Pending Road). I took around 20minutes to reach there? Is that consider fast or slow ? Hmm.. Went to CCK stadium jog. Ran 2.4km around the stadium. After that to gym. Trained awhile and went Lot1 to have Mac for breakfast.

Had a proper haircut by Crystal. Out of shape by those HTA barbers! Nevermind. I got free haircut outside anyway. Walked from Lot1 to home. Did some home stuffs. OFF TO BATHE! Not sure where am I going later. Maybe to PS awhile. Shall see how at night. Ciaos!

Book out!

2009-01-10T12:17:00.002+08:00

Booked out again and again~~!!

Friday's my book out again. CHEERS! Friday is relaxing day. Had RT before lunch. Means play games. Soccer/Basketball. Barrack cleaning and BOOK OUT !! But got held back for those who took LD last weekend. It's ok. No physical. But ear physical. SS Md Noor talked to us.

Went for movie. Red Cliff 2. Nice. I think there will be part 3 again. Just wait for it.

Am I supposed that you have different though of me ? Will you come back to me ? But the contacts are getting lesser and lesser. What does this mean ? I hope it's the positive. Let's wait and see. =)

NS life last weekend.

2009-01-10T12:06:00.002+08:00

Ns life last weekend.

(MONDAY) ; I had a light duty on monday and as well as for tuesday. My ankle is hurting me. Say me Chao Geng if you want. It's quite bored on LD. Look like a dag tailing behind the owner's arse wherever they go. Light duty till wednesday but my buddy ask me to join back the Squad.

(WEDNESDAY) ; Now I realised that there are quite a number of selfish asses in my squad. And irresponsible people in my squad. Greedy people in my squad. All they think is just for themselves. They do not have a thought for others. Did they ever think of how we look at them ? I bet they did not. Wednesday at 12mn and I typed this post in my phone so that I will remember what I want to post in here. Not because I chose this time. Is just that i came across my mind.

(THURSDAY) ; Thursday resume to my PT. Run and run. Run and more run. But I can take the running. Fucking endure!!! And my buddy. Black cock became white cock. I fucking pour lots of powder at his cock. And it's prickly heat! His cock will suffer ! Burn mother fucking, BURN ! ROAR~

My time improved for running 2.4km. Although I felt that it's still quite slow. Anyway, my company have some idiots from the same fucking squad just loves to create trouble for us. Did night PT on thursday night. Not sure if we will get it another time not. Hope it won't happened again. But they just don't learn their fucking lesson. Those Arseholes!!!

Really, I just do whatever those intructors asked us to do. Fuck it. ENDURE. What a life in there.

Drink and more drink........

2009-01-03T16:42:00.002+08:00

Drink drink drink.......... DEAD

After booked out. Went home to wash my clothes. Hanged them. Went Jurong East to have dinner. Headed to 155 to have some beer first with my friends. Then to Tanjiong Pagar for more drink..

Came back home around 3plus. Was so tired !! Jun Lin asked me to Boat Quay. But I rejected him. I REACHED HOME ALREADY. So didn't went there. Slept till 3pm! 12hours of sleep. Not sure where am I going later. TV FIRST !!

It has been so long. But.. It's ok. Maybe you doesn't want. Or Maybe you are really busy. I don't have too much as well. Monday to Friday will be in prison. Will only get release out on every Friday night. But.. A big sigh..

Happy New Year!

2009-01-01T18:02:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year !!

Yesterday was about to bored to death at night !! When I wanted to go out alone to have a stroll, Xavier called and meet me first. Went Bugis to eat. Was planning to go Clark Quay to scout. But ended up at Boozer Room.

2am+ wave cab along the road. A lady approached to me. Talked to me. And I found out that she's SP ex-staff. She know some of the Kimage staff as well. Waited for half and hour for cab. In the end Andrew drove me to Boat Quay.

Stayed at Boat Quay till 4am. Waited for friend's brother to fetch us. He took around 45mins to reach Central. That was like.. HEHE ! =X Reach home around 6am. Slept. Woke up at 11am. Went to hospital trying to take MC for today and tomorrow. But the fcuking doctor doesn't want to give to me. And I opened the MO's letter. He fcuking wrote something bad. WTF. Anyway, gonna go back to camp soon.. Sighs!! Shall see how. My ankle is hurt. The doctor stated in the letter that I can still run.. Just WHAT THE FCUK MAN ! He thought I want to "geng". AHH. Whatever!

Sighs. Getting more and more fucked up with life. What I want in life ? I doesn't want the current life I'm having now. DEPRESSED !

New Year Eve.

2008-12-31T18:39:00.002+08:00

Hello everybody. It's New Year Eve !!

Today is New Year Eve. Which means, my book out day. As usual, book in tomorrow night.

Today after book out went to Westmall to get Sean's stuff. Went to Mac to have our lunch. Chit Chat with one of my friend working at Harvey Norman. On the way back at CCK, saw my Squad Mate. And he told my friend that one of the FI caught someone from our company smoking in walk out attire. Which means tomorrow the whole company will get it. That's COOL !! FUCK YOU , YOU KNOW!?

Book in tomorrow night, book out friday night. You think that's very fun ? FUN ?! WHAT ? WHAT ? WHAT ? I CAN'T HEAR YOU ! FUCK YOU. AM I UNDERSTOOD ?!

Not sure going anywhere tonight. Bored. Happy New Year everybody. =)

Sometimes one will feel this way. But.. Have you ever think of what are you to them ? I've had got nothing else to say. See ya.

;)

2008-12-28T18:04:00.002+08:00

;)

Saturday and that's yesterday. Woke up at 11am+ if I'm not wrong. Went Jurong Point alone around evening time. Saw my "Mummy". Then walked awhile there.Went Jurong East to have dinner. Was wanting to watch IP Man at JP. The earliest time was 12mn. So we decided to drink. =)

Went Discovery. Fcuked up place. Not nice. After that to NaNa. Shane. YOU ARE THE MAN !! YOU FCUKING PUSSY MAN.

I dreamt of something bad. I forgotten what is it. But.. I DON'T WANT THAT TO HAPPEN ! SHOO SHOO!!

Went Lot1 to get my goggle for swimming. Gonna book in later. Time really flies. Have to book in again so soon. How I wish I can book out two times a week.Things I don't want to happen please.. and I mean PLEASE don't happen.

Nobody want something bad to happen to them. But I wish I don't have to be the one. Anyway, I always got a werid feeling when it comes to Sunday or whenever I need to book in. Hate to be in there. It's like no life there. I want to do my own things! 2 years GO GO GO !!

Nice book out..

2008-12-27T04:14:00.002+08:00

What a nice book out I had..

Booked in on Chirstmas day. And got Tekan when falling in. The FIs' saw some of the Mankos(I think it's spelled like this.) wearing the book out attire and hugging girlfriends, holding girlfriend's hand at Lot1. Smoking, wear shades.. wear accessories.. IDIOTS. And I got pumped for nothing!! Parai dogs!!

Friday, FI Benjamin on leave so drilled with FI Sheikh.. We name him 'The Rock'. He fucking smiliar like The Rock. FUCK! His good!! Got patience with us. Not like other FIs. AM I UNDERSTOOD?! PT with FI Md Noor. Fun FI also. After which, muslims went to Mosque. And the Whites got nothing to do at the company line. So.. SLACK !! When the muslims came back.. Drill again!! I like his drill.

Booked out at 1820. Took a shuttle bus to Lot1. Went Lot1 to find Crystal awhile. And got back home. Went to have dinner with some friends. Went East Coast slack and then went to drink with others. Reach home at 4am. It seems like every of my book out I will be drinking. Oh. That's not cool. But I enjoy it! Not sure if my IPPT will pass not. Tsk. Book in on Sunday. BORED !! Hope my 5 months in that prison will end fast and I will pass all my exams and get posted out to the place I wish to be at. =)

I am not sure what you are thinking about. Do you treat everybody the same ? Or just me. I guess I had said this before. What can I do ? Let the time pass by. Count step by step.

Merry Chirstmas !

2008-12-25T15:05:00.003+08:00

Merry Chirstmas everybody!!

Yesterday, evening went PS to find my ex colleagues.. Had a hair cut. Want to balance all up. I'm back to the first day I enlisted ! Tsk! Went Tiong Bahru to have Bak Gu Teh. And went to BarNone. Woohoo! Happening there! It's fun. Stayed there until I'm not sure what time. Wanted to go to the other place. But ended up never go.

Railmall to have our EARLY breakfast. It's freaking 4am+. And HOME SWEET HOME! I'm still tired now. Have to book in later.. SIGHS. Friday night coming out again. So freaking stupid I can say. Book in today.. Book out tomorrow. It will be the same on the 31st of Dec. It falls on the Wednesday as well. What to do. This is NS.

BOOK OUT

2008-12-24T16:06:00.003+08:00

This is the second time I book out.. Feeling great. Better than staying in that "prison" Anyway.. I didn't wanna type anything about my days in that prison. Cause. I FORGOTTEN WHAT I'VE DONE? Basically.. All the days in there are the same. PT, Drill, PT, Drill, PT, Drill.. Tekan, Drill, Tekan, Drill...... What else can we do in there other than all these? Laugh Out Loud man. But.. It's fun.. =)

Both of my legs is hurt. Neither I can bend down very quickly. Nor I can run. FUCK. It's fucking hurt. But I know its for my good. My muscles are growing!! And today is Christmas Eve. So I'm here so early. Book out at 1330. Went to Lot1 to have MAC !! My friend called me. He's fcuking funny. Always the same. No fucking change.

Not sure where I'm going at night. As around Singapore will be very crowded. And we got no plans yet. Hmm.. Well.. I think.. We will do what we always do. DRINK !

It's starting to change. I like it. This is more like it. I'm trying my very best to do whatever I can. I want to change to a better one. I don't want to continue like before. You show me respect and I will give you back the respect.

long long ago.......

2008-12-21T11:46:00.003+08:00

It has been so long since I last drank liquor..

Yesterday went to eat dinner with family at Balestier. Whampo Fishead Steamboat. And then went Chinatown met up with my friends. OFI told us. "Take care of yourself please!! Those riders please ride carefully. Don't smoke too much! AND DON'T DRINK! Drinking will affect your PT. I want to see you back on Sunday night!" Ahhhhh.. FUCK YOU, YOU KNOW?! (That's what my FI always say ). But.. Yesterday ended up drinking. =) It's like... SOOOOOOOOO long since I really touch liqour. It's ok. Anyway, I'm broke already. No money for alcohol.

Reached home 5am+. Bathed and sleep. Thought will wake up late at around noon. But I woke up at 10+ 11. Going Westmall to buy some NS stuffs. And evening back to "jail"

NS SUCKS TO THE CORE !!

Time passes quickly. Day by day. Night by night. Pray for a better tomorrow. But no one will know how will it be the next day. Just do whatever it is. Things that won't kill you will only make you even stronger. As long as you don't die, just live with it. This is life. A fucking life.

MOVE LIKE, LIGHTNING
SHOUT LIKE, THUNDER !!

DONE!!

2008-12-20T01:25:00.003+08:00

After 10 days of confinement........

Offically announced a CHAO RECRUIT (Recruit that never bathe) on 09/12/2008. Anyway, First day on enlistment. Went to CMPB. They asked me if I could see those things that normally people cant see. I said Yes, I do. So.. I was referred to CMPB. They thought I have mental problem. Just because of this I was called a schizophrenic ? CRAP! I reached CMPB. They never notice my exist until 3pm+. for those clerk down there.. I've got 2 words for ya. FUCK YOU !
Anyway, The MO said that I have to stay at IMH for 3 days for observation. If get even serious I might stay up to 1 month! FUCK OFF MAN! I NOT INSANE, YOU BASTARD. But I keep insisting that I saw those things when I was small. So he give up. He ask me back to HTA. Tsk!
At night on 09/12/08, TIME FOR BOTAK !!
The first few days.. Seriously, I'm not afraid to say. I actually cried. I miss my family so badly. I miss home so badly. My first few days was so horrible! It's a HELL for me! Before I enlist, I keep don't feel like going home. I always wanna stay out late. When I went to NS. It's totally different ! Gosh. But I am getting used to it. Day by day.. After my 10 days of confinement. After I book in, the REAL training starts. Now is only for us to get used to it. I am not sure how badly will we get Tekan! I keep telling myself. I can do it ! This is not Tekan! This is training ! It's just for 3 months. I CAN SURVIVE ! The only think I'm scared of is, I will fail my exams. HOPE I WILL PASS !! PLEASE ! PRAY !! Anyway, I quit smoking. Because of some reasons. =)

Got lots of things happened. Not sure what to say.. But... NS SUCKS. Waste of time. What to do? Hm.. The meals are... So So.. Sometimes too salty. But Jiak-able. Too less time to eat. Kept rushing. I got my new buddy. His quite fun. His funny too. Anyway, Lazy to type so much. Nothing really wanna say though. =)

You have to know who is really your loved ones. They are the one who will really be there when you are down or you need someone to be with. Family and friends. Please do not treat them bad. Be good to them. Nice to them. And you will live with no regrets. Trust me people. Cherish them. One day you will have to be independent. So..... GOOD LUCK GUYS!

Less than 8 hours..

2008-12-09T02:52:00.002+08:00

Less than 8 hours to..................

This afternoon went IMM with Ben.. Bought alot of stuffs. Went back home at evening time. Pack my stuffs and headed to Bugis to have dinner. Saw Hei Ren at Bugis. His freaking tall and tanned!! And his fcuking voice is damn deEPPPPPP!! After that drink at Mohamed Sultan. Xavier, Andrew, Kelvin and Ben. Hmm.. Didn't drink much. 2am went off.

Here I am ! And....... It's going 3am in just 2 minutes time. 4+hours of sleep for me. Thanks for spending the night with me before I enlist. =) Thanks my friends.

Anyway, Gonna be 3am in just 1 minute time. 4 plus hours of sleep. Now don't feel the stress. But I believe later after I go in.. I will be damn fcuking stress. Sighss.. It's ok. 2 years only. 730days only. Will be very fast. So..... GOOD LUCK TO ME MY FRIEND !! =)

Everything will go smoothly. Just don't worry too much and do whatever it is. Some friends adviced alot of things. Know what to do already. Thanks people! Nothing much to say. Have to take care of myself for the next 3 months in there. Tata! Don't miss me. HA HA HA ! -.-"

hmm.

2008-12-08T02:47:00.003+08:00

Today just got back from JB..

Saturday went JB at night. Went 3rd Storey to have dinner. It's as if 10 course meal. Order like nobody's business. But the food there is quite nice and cheap also. So.. All inside our stomach and shit it out already. Went Edan to drink with Amos and all.. Bacardi is nice! I LOVE IT. Apple favour. Wow!! Me and Rice went to the front to shuffle. Laughs!! Went off around 2:30am. Went to eat and back to hotel. Was so tired.. We reached hotel around 4+ 5am. And 8+am I heard a fucking irritating sound ! It pissed me off ! FUCK YOU KELVIN ! HAHA!! I know you know. That's it. I will not embarrass you. What a good friend am I. =)

Woke up at 11am next day. Went to Danga City. Went to eat our breakfast cum lunch at Old Market Kopitiam. Some food is nice. Some are normal. Then went to find Amos. And then went slack around !! Until night we went to City Square. Dinner at Sushi King. Walked around the building. Bought ice-cream. From saturday night never got hungry until now. That's very good. Spend quite alot there. And one more thing. We smoke like nobody's business! I'm tired of smoking already!!

Oh great. Today is monday. So.. Tomorrow I'm gonna be like a dog already. Wish me good luck. =)
I wonder how it's gonna be in there? Hope it will be fun. Peace loving. I love you. You love me.

Sad. What can you do when you are sad ? Do you need to put on a fake smile on your face to show people that you are happy but actually you are not ? I am tired. Tired of everything. Not because of NS. But because of everything. EVERYTHING! Do not wish to say anymore. Pointless. CIAOS!

sentosa.

2008-12-06T17:03:00.003+08:00

Rain rain go away .. Come again another day!! Little Sze Tho want to play. =)

It's a rainie day. Went to Sentosa this afternoon. Actually meet them up at 10am. But.. Overslept ! 5 missed call from Xiao Hao. Mervin and JunLong didn't go with us. They were too tired to join us already. Nevermind. It's ok. =)

So the only three of us. Went there. The weather is not good. Rain and stop. Rain and stop. Though not really heavy rain. 3+ went back. Bored. Gonna go JE soon. Going JB later. Not sure staying or not.

HUNGRY !!

What happened to me? Anyone understand how I felt ? Have you people ever felt that way before ? I guess everyone of you will go through all these. But it's not just once you will encounter with this kind of situation. It's not a very good thing to experience this. What can you do ? Add on, I will not have much time.What can I do? Will you go for another one? Are you willing to wait ? Do you have the patience ? I have faith in you. Please trust me. One day I will prove it to you. Just pray that I will get what I want. It's you. Yea. You. So let fate to make the decision. =)

hmm

2008-12-05T13:32:00.004+08:00

BBQ on thursday night.. But..

9+ in the morning went to Boon Keng. After that to Hougang.. Saw Zhou Chu Ming.. His injured I think.. Raining.. Went back to Weizhi's house to sleep. It's so fucking tired. Went East Coast at night. Quite alot of people came. Some of my friends told me the ghost in NS. I'm so looking forward to it. ;)

I didn't get to eat sotongs.. They added chilli on it. Damn. I JUST CANT TAKE CHILLI ! Anyway, Left there around 1+am.. And headed to Lavander. Cause one idiot wanted to eat. I'm not sure why she didn't eat at the BBQ. Maybe she like to waste money? Hm.. And back to WZ's place to sleep.

This morning reached California to settle my payment. Then took train back. I gonna clean up my room later. =) I can't take it anymore. But trust me. After I clean my room.. Few days later.. It will get messed up again. I know.. and .. You know.. Who will it be. =)

Just wanna say this.. It pissed me off the moment I see your damn fcuking face. Why don't you leave this world soon. I will not regret. And will also not even think of you. Just FCUK OFF !

morning!!

2008-12-04T04:32:00.004+08:00

GOOD MORNING!!

I'm sucks at using laptop. Tsk! Now at WZ's house. They are sleeping. But I'm using his laptop. Anyway,

This morning went gym with Steven. After that went to Funan to collect my cheque. Went second storey to talk wit them. Disturb alittle. Sunny cut hair for me. Who wants to cut, please. =) I think I'm used to short hair. Got this intention not to grow long hair anymore. And... Met up with Eileen and Weizhi. Went Central to collect Eileen's wine then headed to Plaza Sing. Once I got there, my first thing is go to Kimage to sit at sofa! The weather is damn bad today. Feel hot and cool.. Seah Ming joined us. Watch movie. The movie sucks. Made me fell asleep in there. Boring show I can say. Weizhi drove me back. I want to bathe!!

Then we went to Bishan to "feed" the fishes with our feet. Yvonne and AhWei came in too. Laughs! for 1hour 15mins for just $18. That's cheap. Anyway I don't feel any different. Went to hougang to have Mac for supper. And come to Weizhi's house. They are sleeping now. I got nothing to do. Should be sleeping later. Oh.. NIGHTS... NO!! Should be "WAKE UP TO HAVE YOUR BREAKFAST!"

Don't feel sad. I'm always there for you. You know there's still someone who care for you. =) Don't think too much. Hope I'm the Mr. Right for you.

woohoo~

2008-12-03T01:43:00.005+08:00

Woohoo!! Woke up at 1530 today. Sleep till so shiok! Don't feel like waking up. Went City Link to have lunch at Sakae Sushi. It's like million years since I last eat Sushi? And then went to Singapore Flyers!! After that went Coffee Bean at Suntec.. and BACK HOME!! Had a haircut for Gabriel. Now watching TV. BORED~

Left 1 more week for me to enjoy. =) Let's see how is my schedule :

Wednesday : 9am gym till 12pm. After that go JB I think. After that not sure where to go.

Thursday : Meet Trina at night and then go for eileen's BBQ at East Coast.

Friday : Not sure going to gym not. But most probably clean my room.

Saturday : Morning go Sentosa. At night go JB to drink.

Sunday : Most probably staying at JB. If saturday I'm not coming back to Singapore.

Monday : Buy my NS stuffs and maybe slack somewhere.

The percentage of chances getting higher and higher ? Or same ? Patience is what I need. Cherish my time with you. Or you will get lesser and lesser as I will not be free for the next 6 months. Cherish every moment you have. One day if I'm gone. Please don't feel sad. Take care.

got back..

2008-12-02T00:59:00.003+08:00

Just got back home.. Went PS to get my protein and pass back my locker key. Went to KFC to eat.. After that went to SMU to slack.. Then took MRT back.. NO WHERE TO GO !! Bored !! The weather now is damn hot. WHY?! So much heat ! Oh gosh. END MY LIFE PLEASE !! MUHAHAHAHHA!!

oh my!

2008-12-01T17:45:00.003+08:00

Oh my! Spent 1 and half hour to pack ONE of my cupboard!! 1 cupboard I took so longgggggg to clear it .. I'm not a person who will clean my room so regularly! So.. You know. Overall, I like.. Got five bags of sutffs to throw away. Too much things in my cupboard already. Friday then spend the whole day to clean up my room. Do slowly. Tsk! Gonna have dinner later. Going PS. Chaos!!

hell...

2008-12-01T14:19:00.004+08:00

Yesterday night was a HELL !! But luckily I esccaped through the hell. Alcohol attack my bones. Hurt me throughout the night till now. What's happening ? Weaking back.

Thanks to all of you for drinking with me on my last day. =)
Really enjoyed my 3 months with you guys at PS. Though it's just only so short time at there. But it's really fun.. relax.. happy at there. So many of you took care of me. =) THANKS.

Yesterday at salon. I was totally slacking. Sleeping. Walking around. Puffing. Playing. Not even doing my work, my job. Im not even working!! Laughing Out Loud!! Did dark colors for my hair. I think I got used to it with short hair already. Many people said I look not bad with short hair. So... Ok! After work, Went to JT Pub. 3 bottles of alcohol. Drank 2 and a half bottle. But mostly is by them. Starting I drank alot. But... I slowed down. My back was hurting me. So.. Yea.. Left around 3am. Took a cab. Bathed and ZZZZZZZZZZZ !! until 2+ today. Here I am.

Not sure going out or not. Gym cancelled today. As not enough energy and strength to do any workouts. Should I clean my room ? TOO LAZY!!

After so much.. I have been thinking and what you told me. Maybe it's true. Love you people. I will do what I can. To make you happy.. enjoy. have fun together. =) Hope all these moments will happen again!! And trust me, I will never forget you guys. Is you who brighten my this period of time. Is you who gave me chances to learn so much. Is you who took so good care of me. Once for all. Thank you.

woo~

2008-11-29T23:43:00.002+08:00

Today is my last day working with B.C and Sam. Tomorrow is my last day working with ALL of them. Really enjoy working with them. Fun being there. =) After work went to Bukit Gombak to eat. After that went Bukit Timah for Battle Field. Maybe going to haunted house later. Not sure? Shall see how it goes. =)

I like the way you are now. Hope it will get better and better and one day... You know. It's for me to know and for you to find out.

gosh!

2008-11-28T22:55:00.006+08:00

Gosh!! Everytime seems to go bad for me!! Handphone spoilt !! Comp kenna virus! What the hell.. NO IMAGE OF MY PHONE. Gonna change one already. ARRRRR!!!!!! PISSED!

Today work was ok. Had a haircut again. Number2 at the side and at the back. Went back early today. Took OT to leave early at 7pm. =) Two more days to say bye bye to Kimage. I got a video of White Tiger eating the man. But.. HANDPHONE NO IMAGE! FUCK.

Had dinner with Crystal just now at Lot1. Talked... and walked back home.. Here I am . . Another day tomorrow. Another day on sunday. Bored. BORED BEING AT HOME!

Sad and happiness. Which do you choose? What can you do if you feel sad. What can you do if you are happy? Whether you are sad or happy, it's also a day you will have to go through. So why not choose to be happy? =P

I have been tolerating with her naggings. I try not to talk back. Cause they are getting old. Let them be. I don't want to regret next time like what I did to my grandmother. My grandmother dote me so much yet I scold her, quarrel with her. Say nasty words at her. And when she leaves us. I regretted for doing all those to her. So I will treat my them good and let them say what they want. sighssss.. This is life. What to do..

LIVE WITH NO REGRETS

emo.......

2008-11-28T00:02:00.003+08:00

Today was a busy day for me. No time for my meals.. Only eat when I reach salon. And then... World War started. =) But.. It's good.. I like..

Leaving in 3 days time... And prepare for my enjoyment. And after all my enjoyssssss.. Prepare to get tortured. Tsk!!

James ask me to follow him to St. James tomorrow. James go to St. James. Not bad. Should I or shouldn't I follow? Thinking in progress.

Today after work was around 10pm. Waited for Steven. And we went to find our "friend". And then.. Back home!! Bored.

When I saw what you were doing. Don't know why I feel so uneasy. I'm a person who jealous so easily. Anyway, I can't do anything. =) Many things are undefined. Where do we get the answers from ? It's from yourself. If we don't get what the answers are, you will suffer.

Should I start my game ?? Can I be a bastard ? What if I'm a bastard. Things starts to get worst. SO. SHOULD I OR SHOULDN'T I.

forgotten......

2008-11-27T01:30:00.004+08:00

Forgotten what I wanted to say here...... It was in my mind earlier.. hmmm....... well... anyway,

Today is quite a busy day for me. =) Wanted to take MC tomorrow.. But... I guess I won't take it anymore.. Cause it's like left 4 more days ? I do Swee Swee for them bah.. After work went to gym. I LOVE IT ! RELIEVE STRESS! Sunday BIG DAY !! LAST DAY! And ... Going to JB next week. Also a BIG DAY!! 9/12 is also a BIG DAY !! So many big days.. laughs! It's raining. Nice. Not sure if I will be able to wake up tomorrow.

It's been going down so deep like the ocean. But... What's your answer to it ? I'm willing to wait. How long do I have to wait till you nod your head? Well...... It's ok. =) Let fate to decide then.

changed.....

2008-11-26T00:31:00.003+08:00

Went to watch Beverly Hills Chihuahua.. Funny and cute show. CUTE! Those doggies are cute! Oh my. Went Lot1 in the afternoon.. Ate Yong Tau Fu. After that went to watch movie and then to Esplanade .. And Back home!! Ate Hor Fun at night. tsk!

After I stopped working in Kimage.. I still have 8 days for me to enjoy! I will do a "Spring Cleaning" for my room! Dust combine with dirt. Oh my. Faint.. Nevermind. I will clean my room before I go NS. =)

You have started to changed my life. I'm doing what I never used to do. Though I have thought of doing. But now, I'm doing with no second thoughts. Though it's just some simple things. But I will still be myself. =)
Hope I will share every of your problems. Enjoy every moments with you. =)

holiday..

2008-11-23T23:05:00.002+08:00

Every sunday is a chalet for me....... Why ? We play around.. and SLEEP AROUND !

Slept in the salon... Play game.. fool around... Video them like nobody's business.. Fun... and my friend !! DUNHILL !!

This morning when I took 190 to work...... I overslept to Funan ! So I took a train to Plaza Sing.. After work. I took 190 back again.. I almost overslept to Lot1 interchange ! Luckily I suddenly woke up and quickly press the bell before it leaves. What a sleeping day for me. Came back home... BORED !

Getting lazier and lazier.. and even lazier.. and more lazier.. Getting so tired everyday. Body system getting weaker. May leave this world anytime and anywhere.You never know what's going on. Only god knows it. Life is bored.

love......

2008-11-23T03:13:00.003+08:00

There are many things we got to go through in life. Love, career...... all the up and down.. You don't "Aga Aga" with your life. In the end, you will have a Aga Aga life. As in, you don't know what to do next. You are lost. "Aga" is a very DANGEROUS word ever to use! If you "Aga" your life, it means you doesn't even bother about how you gonna live in the future. You won't know what's your future is going to be.
If your Aga-ration is so accurate, there won't be any penniless person. You won't see so many perseverance small kids and aunties going table to table at coffee shop selling tissue. And there will be alot of millionaire.

Some human beings just doesn't know how to solve the problem with relationships. Though there are no perfect couples around. But at least we have to know the basics in to it.. What are basics. Its you know what to do. When to give in. When not to. Giving in too much.. they will start to take it for granted. Doesn't appreciate what you do for them. And this started to changed their mindset of you. They will start thinking that.. I AM RIGHT ! YOU ARE WRONG ! WHATEVER I DO YOU MUST LISTEN. YOU ARE NOTHING BUT A PIECE OF SHIT. LISTEN TO ME BEFORE I LEAVE YOU. AND YOU WILL REGRET FOR LIFE ! MUHAHAHA! F*** you people. This will starts them to change their attitude towards you.
To maintain a good relationship is to understand the person. Doesn't get stress over what they do. Have trust in them. Understands what they are doing. No matter how long they have to wait for them to finishes their work and not get pissed off over it. Not to tied them too hard. Gives more freedom for friends.

When you're in a relationship, PLEASE don't forget about your friends. If you do so, sooner or later.. You will find yourself lonely in a black and white world. No rainbows over you. No more sunshine. And nightmares will be your new friends...

When you are willing to share your problems with your friends. Listen to their advise and think back what you have done wrong. What's the point for you to keep speaking for yourself and the other party when you are here to share your damn problem and doesn't listen to our advise. You are just here to entertain us and telling us how great you are. We have been through alot so we are able to share with you what's going on. You have to cope it well. Don't think that future will be how you think right now. In this period of time, things start to change... You will never know what's going on tomorrow. Even worst, in the future. What you think is that.. We are telling you bad. Shoot all the bullshits to you from us. "Aga" your future where you don't even have a stable career or something. One just cant take people's advise you might as well stay at home keep banging on the wall or you can just shut up drink your f***ing chinese tea and listen to our craps. Don't be a loser. Have to change your childish thinking. Be more matured.

We never know what is going to happen next. Don't ever "Aga" your life. Dream is good. But.. don't day dream or expect it to come. High expectation isn't a good thing.It will only destroy your brain cells. Plan for your career now than your marriage. Once you've had a career, nothing can stop you from going through the winning line.

anytime, anywhere

2008-11-22T22:53:00.002+08:00

Latest well trained skill... I can sleep anywhere and anytime! Seriously. ANYWHERE.!

Nothing much about today.. Cause.. Life is boring.. Nothing much we can do about it. Left 17 more days for me to report to Old Choa Chu Kang Road. Saddness..

Getting lazier and lazier. Getting so shag each day. Don't feel like doing anything!

Sometimes I really wonder if you treat everyone the same or just me. I have starting to been thinking too much about many things. Hope one day I know the true you. =)

..

2008-11-22T01:26:00.003+08:00

Don't take me like a fool. If you are playing some games with me. Stop it right now before I start my game! I'm not anybody. I'm Sze Tho. You don't wish to mess with.

Lazy to clean my room! dust all over! Why does dust exist. Sighss..

Heart swollen,
Mind corrupted,

After listening...
Starts to avoid,
What else can I do...

We count step by step..
regretted for what I did.
But for you,
I rather sacrifice,

I still chose one path for myself.
Is to respect my own decision,
no matter what happens.

Unless just one day,
you starts to changed.

Hot tempered me.
Easily frustrated.
Nice guy still is me.

back..

2008-11-19T02:51:00.005+08:00

After like don't know how many days since I last blog..

Basically, I have already forgotten how I did for the past few days.. anyway, I left 1+ week more to leave Kimage. And less than one month for National Service.

Went to JW to have lunch with Andrew. And also up with Xavier n Ben. And I bought 1200 a non-camera phone @ only 50 bucks. Gonna give the other phone I'm using back to Jon. After JW went to JB with Xavier.

Just got back from JB. Went there to slack.. Since we got nothing to do in Singapura? Went to JB. Slack.. And went to drink with Amos and others.. It was like.. 1+ in the middle of the night.. Amos drove us to outside Singapore custom and drop us there. As he cant go in to Singapore cause he didn't bring his passport along. So.. We walked to Singapore custom ! Not that far actually.. We took a cab back.. Here I am ! HAs!

Gym tomorrow again! I will train hard to get what I expected.

I have been thinking for quite sometime. I've decided to give up on you. I guess you know who you are if you are reading my blog. My life starting to get back to what I used to be and I'm sure you won't like it. Humans are a very complicated creature. We wouldn't know what's gonna happen in the next moment of life. We might think that what we thought will last forever.. But...... You will change your mind eventually. PLEASE DON'T MAKE EMPTY PROMISES!! This is very important. What you don't confrim please don't make a promise! I have my greatest friend with me.. There when I'm lonely or feeling down. We share the same feelings.

Dunhill is my greatest friend of my life. =) love ya.

hi

2008-11-13T00:50:00.003+08:00

Quite busy today.. One whole day only ate one meal.. sighss...

After work.. Went gym. Today quite relax. Not sure why. Went off early today. Actually going to BK at cine. But... scare no last train. So I'm back home!! Bored ! Nothing to do. All of my friends had their dinner already. Sad. Waiting for my brother to come back. A BIG SIGH!

Bad habit is back !! Keep on blinking my eyes.. Sighs. I cant control.. Auto blink and blink. I DUN WANT IT !!

sometimes......

2008-11-12T00:23:00.005+08:00

Sometimes I really wondering. What's going on ? What is this ?? Or I'm just thinking too much ? I cant believe what I'm seeing.. It's like so coincidence.? Who can help me ? No one can help me. You are starting to have a cold shoulder on me. What am I supposed to do ? Continue waiting ? My friend told me not to. But... I cant get you off my mind. Whenever I close my eyes.. Your image appear in front of me. I feel like tears-ing.. But.. So what if i dropped my tears. Will it change everything ?

I still believe in myself. You can not believe in anyone. But believe in yourself. =)

sad.

2008-11-11T14:58:00.002+08:00

Sad.. Didn't went to Go-Kart today. Because.. KEL CANT FIND HIS PASSPORT !! DAMN IT ! Waste my time.. I haven been sleeping dude !! ROAR !!

Time to sleep !! tata....................

Good Morning !

2008-11-11T07:16:00.018+08:00

A very good morning to everyone..

The reason I'm still here blogging early in the morning is because.. I JUST GOT HOME ! And not planning to sleep. =) Going out again soon!! Going for Go-Kart~ Woohoo!! meeting them at 9am later.

Yesterday after work went to gym.. It's hell for me. Worst ever gym than last time. I was like.. AHHHHH !! I CANT DO IT ANYMORE! sighs.. What happened ? After gym. Went to meet Cindy at Bukit Gombak. Chit Chat till 3am? WOW! Then went to Ben's house for FIFA until 0530! Then went down to eat breakfast.. Chit chat awhile and came back home to get my passport. Tsk!! Will be fcuking shag at night later. Think I will collaspe after I get back home at night.

Off i go to bathe. rest awhile until my handphone fully charged.

3/11/2008

WHO GOT THE GUTS TO DRINK WITH US?!

hmm..

2008-11-09T02:34:00.003+08:00

Where did I went yesterday?? Oh.. Paradise. After gym den went to game until 4am. Then....... back home n ZZZZZ.. Today is freaking tired for me at work. In fact, ALL of us were tired.

08/11/2008

To be continue........
ALL of us were tired. tsk! After work went to sing! Just got home.. Well.. I guess I am starting to slack at work. Don't wish to do anything at the salon. REASON: I'm leaving SOON! *evil laughs* Surprisingly Yiwen called me!! She asking me for dinner before I go in NS. I was like SHOCKED. She never msg me before ? She missed me?! O.O! nahx.. Friends lah..

Do you really care for me? Or you treat everyone the same. Hope it's the other way round. But i guess...... a big NO.
Cherish me before you can ever see me again. =)

Menses for me......

2008-11-06T22:26:00.002+08:00

Today is not a day for me.. Work and suddenly mooooooood swing. Swing high high cannot see.

Work, alright. Not really busy. Still can have the time to take some cigar.. Didn't know they going to gym today. If not i will tag along.. BORED!

Waiting for Gabriel to come. He wanna have a hair cut.. All a long I am the one who is cutting his hair. Hmm.. I can say training? tsk!!

Something you must really know. You must have a reason for doing anything. If you don't have a reason for something, that means you are just wasting your time and effort. Something you want or it's a need. You want something.. Please don't get it. If you need something, please risk your life and get it. But most of the humans get what they want and not what they need. Sometimes human beings are just so complicated. =)

never watch...............

2008-11-06T00:10:00.003+08:00

Seriously, never watch The Coffin. It's a damn fucking waste of money and wasting of time watching. Other than the director, you never know what the fuck it's showing about.

After watching went to Mac to have dinner.. Then slack at Kopi Roti. Until around 1130 and SHOOOOO back home...

Wtf.. Took MC and watch movie. That's what I should do. Ha! Since I'm about to leave Kimage in just less than 1 month? Hm... 24days to go. =)

I'm a simple person for you to know. Nothing complicated about me. If you people think I'm a very complicated person.. You are wrong. But how many of you think the other way? After my NS, It's time for me to chiong my work. No fooling around.. But occasionally lah. TSK! I can be serious at times.. But I can be a schizophrenic at all times! Work tomorrow.. A very big SIANs !!!

spinning!

2008-11-05T10:54:00.004+08:00

Tuesday, Met Andrew in the afternoon for lunch. After that Leo came to find us at Lot1.

Evening, Went to Ben's area to buy Martell and mixer. Den went to Ben's house.. Waiting for all to come.. Ordered KFC. It's always fun being with them.. Scream here and there like nobody's business. One day police will COME! WOOHOO! After eating.. IT'S TIME TO START THE GAME!

The game started.. As usual what we always play. Got Ace, POUR WADEVER U WANT. got 4 Kings, DRINK WADEVER IT'S INSIDE THE GLASS. This is HELL! Played afew rounds. And they wanted to stuff a funnel and pour wadever they want for 20 secs. Cause im 20 years old!! You people are not cool !! But I escape away. Currently no pictures. Wait till Ben loaded all the pictures then I upload on here.. Then.. Lie on Ben's bed.. My head was spinning. And... ZZZZZZZ until this morning 10am.

On MC today. Damn tired.. My head still spins.

Maybe, you people doesn't think I'm still alive in this world. I share stuffs with you. But in the end, what do I get. You people totally forgotten about me. When you need me, you call me. When you don't need me, it's as if I'm not alive. What's the feeling of being left alone? Don't pity me. Cause you people suck to the core. =) Come and get me if you dare. I will give you no peace. One by One. I will give you a living

HELL .
R.I.P .