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New Year Eve.

Hello everybody. It's New Year Eve !!

Today is New Year Eve. Which means, my book out day. As usual, book in tomorrow night.

Today after book out went to Westmall to get Sean's stuff. Went to Mac to have our lunch. Chit Chat with one of my friend working at Harvey Norman. On the way back at CCK, saw my Squad Mate. And he told my friend that one of the FI caught someone from our company smoking in walk out attire. Which means tomorrow the whole company will get it. That's COOL !! FUCK YOU , YOU KNOW!?

Book in tomorrow night, book out friday night. You think that's very fun ? FUN ?! WHAT ? WHAT ? WHAT ? I CAN'T HEAR YOU ! FUCK YOU. AM I UNDERSTOOD ?!

Not sure going anywhere tonight. Bored. Happy New Year everybody. =)

Sometimes one will feel this way. But.. Have you ever think of what are you to them ? I've had got nothing else to say. See ya.

loner.

;)

;)

Saturday and that's yesterday. Woke up at 11am+ if I'm not wrong. Went Jurong Point alone around evening time. Saw my "Mummy". Then walked awhile there.Went Jurong East to have dinner. Was wanting to watch IP Man at JP. The earliest time was 12mn. So we decided to drink. =)

Went Discovery. Fcuked up place. Not nice. After that to NaNa. Shane. YOU ARE THE MAN !! YOU FCUKING PUSSY MAN.

I dreamt of something bad. I forgotten what is it. But.. I DON'T WANT THAT TO HAPPEN ! SHOO SHOO!!

Went Lot1 to get my goggle for swimming. Gonna book in later. Time really flies. Have to book in again so soon. How I wish I can book out two times a week.Things I don't want to happen please.. and I mean PLEASE don't happen.

Nobody want something bad to happen to them. But I wish I don't have to be the one. Anyway, I always got a werid feeling when it comes to Sunday or whenever I need to book in. Hate to be in there. It's like no life there. I want to do my own things! 2 years GO GO GO !!

loner.

Nice book out..

What a nice book out I had..

Booked in on Chirstmas day. And got Tekan when falling in. The FIs' saw some of the Mankos(I think it's spelled like this.) wearing the book out attire and hugging girlfriends, holding girlfriend's hand at Lot1. Smoking, wear shades.. wear accessories.. IDIOTS. And I got pumped for nothing!! Parai dogs!!

Friday, FI Benjamin on leave so drilled with FI Sheikh.. We name him 'The Rock'. He fucking smiliar like The Rock. FUCK! His good!! Got patience with us. Not like other FIs. AM I UNDERSTOOD?! PT with FI Md Noor. Fun FI also. After which, muslims went to Mosque. And the Whites got nothing to do at the company line. So.. SLACK !! When the muslims came back.. Drill again!! I like his drill.

Booked out at 1820. Took a shuttle bus to Lot1. Went Lot1 to find Crystal awhile. And got back home. Went to have dinner with some friends. Went East Coast slack and then went to drink with others. Reach home at 4am. It seems like every of my book out I will be drinking. Oh. That's not cool. But I enjoy it! Not sure if my IPPT will pass not. Tsk. Book in on Sunday. BORED !! Hope my 5 months in that prison will end fast and I will pass all my exams and get posted out to the place I wish to be at. =)

I am not sure what you are thinking about. Do you treat everybody the same ? Or just me. I guess I had said this before. What can I do ? Let the time pass by. Count step by step.

loner.

Merry Chirstmas !

Merry Chirstmas everybody!!

Yesterday, evening went PS to find my ex colleagues.. Had a hair cut. Want to balance all up. I'm back to the first day I enlisted ! Tsk! Went Tiong Bahru to have Bak Gu Teh. And went to BarNone. Woohoo! Happening there! It's fun. Stayed there until I'm not sure what time. Wanted to go to the other place. But ended up never go.

Railmall to have our EARLY breakfast. It's freaking 4am+. And HOME SWEET HOME! I'm still tired now. Have to book in later.. SIGHS. Friday night coming out again. So freaking stupid I can say. Book in today.. Book out tomorrow. It will be the same on the 31st of Dec. It falls on the Wednesday as well. What to do. This is NS.

loner.

BOOK OUT

This is the second time I book out.. Feeling great. Better than staying in that "prison" Anyway.. I didn't wanna type anything about my days in that prison. Cause. I FORGOTTEN WHAT I'VE DONE? Basically.. All the days in there are the same. PT, Drill, PT, Drill, PT, Drill.. Tekan, Drill, Tekan, Drill...... What else can we do in there other than all these? Laugh Out Loud man. But.. It's fun.. =)

Both of my legs is hurt. Neither I can bend down very quickly. Nor I can run. FUCK. It's fucking hurt. But I know its for my good. My muscles are growing!! And today is Christmas Eve. So I'm here so early. Book out at 1330. Went to Lot1 to have MAC !! My friend called me. He's fcuking funny. Always the same. No fucking change.

Not sure where I'm going at night. As around Singapore will be very crowded. And we got no plans yet. Hmm.. Well.. I think.. We will do what we always do. DRINK !

It's starting to change. I like it. This is more like it. I'm trying my very best to do whatever I can. I want to change to a better one. I don't want to continue like before. You show me respect and I will give you back the respect.

loner.

long long ago.......

It has been so long since I last drank liquor..

Yesterday went to eat dinner with family at Balestier. Whampo Fishead Steamboat. And then went Chinatown met up with my friends. OFI told us. "Take care of yourself please!! Those riders please ride carefully. Don't smoke too much! AND DON'T DRINK! Drinking will affect your PT. I want to see you back on Sunday night!" Ahhhhh.. FUCK YOU, YOU KNOW?! (That's what my FI always say ). But.. Yesterday ended up drinking. =) It's like... SOOOOOOOOO long since I really touch liqour. It's ok. Anyway, I'm broke already. No money for alcohol.

Reached home 5am+. Bathed and sleep. Thought will wake up late at around noon. But I woke up at 10+ 11. Going Westmall to buy some NS stuffs. And evening back to "jail"

NS SUCKS TO THE CORE !!

Time passes quickly. Day by day. Night by night. Pray for a better tomorrow. But no one will know how will it be the next day. Just do whatever it is. Things that won't kill you will only make you even stronger. As long as you don't die, just live with it. This is life. A fucking life.

MOVE LIKE, LIGHTNING
SHOUT LIKE, THUNDER !!

loner.

DONE!!

After 10 days of confinement........

Offically announced a CHAO RECRUIT (Recruit that never bathe) on 09/12/2008. Anyway, First day on enlistment. Went to CMPB. They asked me if I could see those things that normally people cant see. I said Yes, I do. So.. I was referred to CMPB. They thought I have mental problem. Just because of this I was called a schizophrenic ? CRAP! I reached CMPB. They never notice my exist until 3pm+. for those clerk down there.. I've got 2 words for ya. FUCK YOU !
Anyway, The MO said that I have to stay at IMH for 3 days for observation. If get even serious I might stay up to 1 month! FUCK OFF MAN! I NOT INSANE, YOU BASTARD. But I keep insisting that I saw those things when I was small. So he give up. He ask me back to HTA. Tsk!
At night on 09/12/08, TIME FOR BOTAK !!
The first few days.. Seriously, I'm not afraid to say. I actually cried. I miss my family so badly. I miss home so badly. My first few days was so horrible! It's a HELL for me! Before I enlist, I keep don't feel like going home. I always wanna stay out late. When I went to NS. It's totally different ! Gosh. But I am getting used to it. Day by day.. After my 10 days of confinement. After I book in, the REAL training starts. Now is only for us to get used to it. I am not sure how badly will we get Tekan! I keep telling myself. I can do it ! This is not Tekan! This is training ! It's just for 3 months. I CAN SURVIVE ! The only think I'm scared of is, I will fail my exams. HOPE I WILL PASS !! PLEASE ! PRAY !! Anyway, I quit smoking. Because of some reasons. =)

Got lots of things happened. Not sure what to say.. But... NS SUCKS. Waste of time. What to do? Hm.. The meals are... So So.. Sometimes too salty. But Jiak-able. Too less time to eat. Kept rushing. I got my new buddy. His quite fun. His funny too. Anyway, Lazy to type so much. Nothing really wanna say though. =)

You have to know who is really your loved ones. They are the one who will really be there when you are down or you need someone to be with. Family and friends. Please do not treat them bad. Be good to them. Nice to them. And you will live with no regrets. Trust me people. Cherish them. One day you will have to be independent. So..... GOOD LUCK GUYS!

loner.

Less than 8 hours..

Less than 8 hours to..................

This afternoon went IMM with Ben.. Bought alot of stuffs. Went back home at evening time. Pack my stuffs and headed to Bugis to have dinner. Saw Hei Ren at Bugis. His freaking tall and tanned!! And his fcuking voice is damn deEPPPPPP!! After that drink at Mohamed Sultan. Xavier, Andrew, Kelvin and Ben. Hmm.. Didn't drink much. 2am went off.

Here I am ! And....... It's going 3am in just 2 minutes time. 4+hours of sleep for me. Thanks for spending the night with me before I enlist. =) Thanks my friends.

Anyway, Gonna be 3am in just 1 minute time. 4 plus hours of sleep. Now don't feel the stress. But I believe later after I go in.. I will be damn fcuking stress. Sighss.. It's ok. 2 years only. 730days only. Will be very fast. So..... GOOD LUCK TO ME MY FRIEND !! =)

Everything will go smoothly. Just don't worry too much and do whatever it is. Some friends adviced alot of things. Know what to do already. Thanks people! Nothing much to say. Have to take care of myself for the next 3 months in there. Tata! Don't miss me. HA HA HA ! -.-"

loner.

hmm.

Today just got back from JB..

Saturday went JB at night. Went 3rd Storey to have dinner. It's as if 10 course meal. Order like nobody's business. But the food there is quite nice and cheap also. So.. All inside our stomach and shit it out already. Went Edan to drink with Amos and all.. Bacardi is nice! I LOVE IT. Apple favour. Wow!! Me and Rice went to the front to shuffle. Laughs!! Went off around 2:30am. Went to eat and back to hotel. Was so tired.. We reached hotel around 4+ 5am. And 8+am I heard a fucking irritating sound ! It pissed me off ! FUCK YOU KELVIN ! HAHA!! I know you know. That's it. I will not embarrass you. What a good friend am I. =)

Woke up at 11am next day. Went to Danga City. Went to eat our breakfast cum lunch at Old Market Kopitiam. Some food is nice. Some are normal. Then went to find Amos. And then went slack around !! Until night we went to City Square. Dinner at Sushi King. Walked around the building. Bought ice-cream. From saturday night never got hungry until now. That's very good. Spend quite alot there. And one more thing. We smoke like nobody's business! I'm tired of smoking already!!

Oh great. Today is monday. So.. Tomorrow I'm gonna be like a dog already. Wish me good luck. =)
I wonder how it's gonna be in there? Hope it will be fun. Peace loving. I love you. You love me.

Sad. What can you do when you are sad ? Do you need to put on a fake smile on your face to show people that you are happy but actually you are not ? I am tired. Tired of everything. Not because of NS. But because of everything. EVERYTHING! Do not wish to say anymore. Pointless. CIAOS!

loner.

sentosa.

Rain rain go away .. Come again another day!! Little Sze Tho want to play. =)

It's a rainie day. Went to Sentosa this afternoon. Actually meet them up at 10am. But.. Overslept ! 5 missed call from Xiao Hao. Mervin and JunLong didn't go with us. They were too tired to join us already. Nevermind. It's ok. =)

So the only three of us. Went there. The weather is not good. Rain and stop. Rain and stop. Though not really heavy rain. 3+ went back. Bored. Gonna go JE soon. Going JB later. Not sure staying or not.

HUNGRY !!


What happened to me? Anyone understand how I felt ? Have you people ever felt that way before ? I guess everyone of you will go through all these. But it's not just once you will encounter with this kind of situation. It's not a very good thing to experience this. What can you do ? Add on, I will not have much time.What can I do? Will you go for another one? Are you willing to wait ? Do you have the patience ? I have faith in you. Please trust me. One day I will prove it to you. Just pray that I will get what I want. It's you. Yea. You. So let fate to make the decision. =)

loner.

hmm

BBQ on thursday night.. But..

9+ in the morning went to Boon Keng. After that to Hougang.. Saw Zhou Chu Ming.. His injured I think.. Raining.. Went back to Weizhi's house to sleep. It's so fucking tired. Went East Coast at night. Quite alot of people came. Some of my friends told me the ghost in NS. I'm so looking forward to it. ;)

I didn't get to eat sotongs.. They added chilli on it. Damn. I JUST CANT TAKE CHILLI ! Anyway, Left there around 1+am.. And headed to Lavander. Cause one idiot wanted to eat. I'm not sure why she didn't eat at the BBQ. Maybe she like to waste money? Hm.. And back to WZ's place to sleep.

This morning reached California to settle my payment. Then took train back. I gonna clean up my room later. =) I can't take it anymore. But trust me. After I clean my room.. Few days later.. It will get messed up again. I know.. and .. You know.. Who will it be. =)


Just wanna say this.. It pissed me off the moment I see your damn fcuking face. Why don't you leave this world soon. I will not regret. And will also not even think of you. Just FCUK OFF !

loner.

morning!!

GOOD MORNING!!

I'm sucks at using laptop. Tsk! Now at WZ's house. They are sleeping. But I'm using his laptop. Anyway,

This morning went gym with Steven. After that went to Funan to collect my cheque. Went second storey to talk wit them. Disturb alittle. Sunny cut hair for me. Who wants to cut, please. =) I think I'm used to short hair. Got this intention not to grow long hair anymore. And... Met up with Eileen and Weizhi. Went Central to collect Eileen's wine then headed to Plaza Sing. Once I got there, my first thing is go to Kimage to sit at sofa! The weather is damn bad today. Feel hot and cool.. Seah Ming joined us. Watch movie. The movie sucks. Made me fell asleep in there. Boring show I can say. Weizhi drove me back. I want to bathe!!

Then we went to Bishan to "feed" the fishes with our feet. Yvonne and AhWei came in too. Laughs! for 1hour 15mins for just $18. That's cheap. Anyway I don't feel any different. Went to hougang to have Mac for supper. And come to Weizhi's house. They are sleeping now. I got nothing to do. Should be sleeping later. Oh.. NIGHTS... NO!! Should be "WAKE UP TO HAVE YOUR BREAKFAST!"


Don't feel sad. I'm always there for you. You know there's still someone who care for you. =) Don't think too much. Hope I'm the Mr. Right for you.

loner.

woohoo~

loner.

got back..

Just got back home.. Went PS to get my protein and pass back my locker key. Went to KFC to eat.. After that went to SMU to slack.. Then took MRT back.. NO WHERE TO GO !! Bored !! The weather now is damn hot. WHY?! So much heat ! Oh gosh. END MY LIFE PLEASE !! MUHAHAHAHHA!!

loner.

oh my!

Oh my! Spent 1 and half hour to pack ONE of my cupboard!! 1 cupboard I took so longgggggg to clear it .. I'm not a person who will clean my room so regularly! So.. You know. Overall, I like.. Got five bags of sutffs to throw away. Too much things in my cupboard already. Friday then spend the whole day to clean up my room. Do slowly. Tsk! Gonna have dinner later. Going PS. Chaos!!

loner.

hell...

Yesterday night was a HELL !! But luckily I esccaped through the hell. Alcohol attack my bones. Hurt me throughout the night till now. What's happening ? Weaking back.

Thanks to all of you for drinking with me on my last day. =)
Really enjoyed my 3 months with you guys at PS. Though it's just only so short time at there. But it's really fun.. relax.. happy at there. So many of you took care of me. =) THANKS.

Yesterday at salon. I was totally slacking. Sleeping. Walking around. Puffing. Playing. Not even doing my work, my job. Im not even working!! Laughing Out Loud!! Did dark colors for my hair. I think I got used to it with short hair already. Many people said I look not bad with short hair. So... Ok! After work, Went to JT Pub. 3 bottles of alcohol. Drank 2 and a half bottle. But mostly is by them. Starting I drank alot. But... I slowed down. My back was hurting me. So.. Yea.. Left around 3am. Took a cab. Bathed and ZZZZZZZZZZZ !! until 2+ today. Here I am.


Not sure going out or not. Gym cancelled today. As not enough energy and strength to do any workouts. Should I clean my room ? TOO LAZY!!

After so much.. I have been thinking and what you told me. Maybe it's true. Love you people. I will do what I can. To make you happy.. enjoy. have fun together. =) Hope all these moments will happen again!! And trust me, I will never forget you guys. Is you who brighten my this period of time. Is you who gave me chances to learn so much. Is you who took so good care of me. Once for all. Thank you.

loner.