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shag.........

Freaking shag !!

Seriously I hate duties!! I hate doing audit !! S*i*..! Basically, friday night went out. Forgotten where I went to. But reach home and sleep at 4am. Woke up 0530 and f**k off to office. Stayed till 11am and f**k back home. Met my friends. Then blah blah blah...... my memory is getting from bad to worst. Anyway, what for remember so much things. Right? =)

YESTERDAY! ( SATURDAY ) & TODAY! ( SUNDAY )

Yesterday.. was saturday. Met my friends right after I finished my work. Met them at Chinatown. Then blah blah blah.. What did I do yesterday.. forgot already. Don't want to think so much. What for making myself to think so much. I'M DAMN LAZY NOW !! TIRED !!
And same rountine. Reached home and sleep at 4am. Woke up at 0530. OFF TO THE BLOODY OFFICE !! worked till 11. Came back home COMA ! Woke up at around 1930. Ate dinner. Tomorrow have to reach office at 8am. So might be sleeping soon. FUCK !! SO EARLY FOR WHAT.. ARSEHOLES!! -.-"

loner.

Everybody.......

SERIOUSLY. EVERYBODY SUCKS!!
SERIOUSLY. EVERY WORK SUCKS!!
SERIOUSLY. EVERYTHING SUCKS!!

ULTIMATELY. NOTHING IS GOOD !!

F**K OFF EVERYONE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



BYE!! GET A F**KING LIFE MAN!

loner.

Headache.

Headache, feeling of vomitting = PREGNANT ?!

Reached office at 0730hours. I was freaking tired. Stomach hurt. And giddy.. Maybe because I'm too tired already. That's why ? And.. Feeling like vomitting. Sighss.. Today quite slack. Went OPA to do some stuff. Smoked in the hall. Went back to division and played some mini games on the computer. Then off I go. Came back home. The two idiot dogs mess up the kitchen. -.-" Full of shit and urine plus my dog brought down my little dustbin from the basin and messed the whole floor. Well.. cleared already.. Friday + Saturday + Sunday = 0700 - 1430 hours. SHAG !! 7AM!! YOU IMAGINE !! -.-"

loner.

STRESS!!

STRESS !!

Today.. STRESS !! Almost went amok in the office !! MY WORK WILL BE SO F**KING STRESS FOR THE REST OF MY 1YEAR 7MONTHS !! DAMN ITTTTTTTTTT !! What the **** !!

ANYWAY, after work went Lot1 to find my ex-colleague. Had dinner at Mcdonal's. Chit chat awhile. Then home sweet home. Tomorrow 0800hours have to be in the office. Sighs. Because of those f**king NSman !! F**K OFF MAN !! Coming weekend having deployment. Not sure if I'm part of it. OK.. BORING LIFE !

loner.

Alright..

Alright......

Well.. Yesterday was Saturday. Weekends for me passed very fast. Why. Time doesn't let you enjoy too much. It only comes to work then the time will pass by slower. It's like torturing the hell out of you. Well.. Yesterday after gym went to meet my friends. They came to fetch me. Went Newtown. The two fat ass ate like nobody's business. -.-" Then headed to Punggol actually was to find my friend's friends. But we cant find their vehical and I don't know what's the reason why he don't want to call his friend. Then fetch the two fat arse back home. Headed to me and my friends' usual place. Shall stop here. No further information shall be given. =D

Why am I such a failure in everything. I always repeat this question to myself. Why ? Am I that irritating or what ? Or which part of me doesn't perform well ? Or am I not good enough ? I keep asking myself this question. Sometimes I also ask people this question. But they can't answer me. Well, I guess I shall not irritate you anymore. But when you call my name, I will be there.


Let me be alone. =(

loner.

Shag..

Shaggggggg

Had diarrhea on thursday night till friday. Was suffering like nobody's business.. Yesterday after work went to met My friends at Orchard first. Headed to Cuppage to have dinner. Went for a movie after that. Watched Angel and Demon. At the beginning was quite boring. But in the end then.. yea.. Laughs.. Watched till 0230. Went to have "supper". Then home sweet home.

Just woke up not long ago. Going gym later..

BORING !!!!!!!!!!

loner.

Fucking bastard..

Fucking bastard ***** ****..

Alright.. Today at office too slack already. Cause I got nothing to do. They haven't teach me yet. And his so busy. So.. slack around lor. Didn't went to the gym today. My muscle is so painful. =( GETTING BIGGER MUSCLES! So... stayed at home.

There's this bastard living in Singapore but originally came from Taiwan. Started a company few years ago. My mummy worked for him for 4years. Now, that f**king bastard bite her hard. Insult people's mother. Insulted her badly. Not my mummy of course. She's my mummy's colleague. IF HE F**KING INSULT MY MOTHER. I GIVE HIM HELL. Anyway, He's really a bad guy. Good at acting!! Found a hometown partner to work for him. And Kick all old birds away. DON'T BELIEVE IN THIS F**KING BEAST! Why didn't he died eariler. Hope his company will close down as soon as possible. AND I LOVE CURSING PEOPLE!!

loner.

Everything has changed.

Everything has changed.

What happened ? Why does things change so easily ? In relationship ? Family ? Money ? Everything changes. I doesn't want to say names. Why they voice out so loudly whenever they want ? Do they think of how I feel ? Or are they have problems troubling them ? But do they think of how I feels ? Am I a punching bag for them ? I'm a failure in everything. In relationship and all. There's no one else that will stand by me every moment whenever I need her. No one for me to dote. After enlisted to NS. My income has gone down alot. No part time for me. Can't find any part time now. No jobs for me. My NS allowance only $420. How am I going to live on with this kind of money ? Everybody is losing job now. What has this world becoming into ? GOD. Please tell me. I pray everyday. Hoping that my family would live happily. Why aren't we close to each other from young ? You changed my mood the moment I sees you. Why ? Is it because of how you treated me when I was small ? Is this the reason why I hated you so much ? I hardly talk to my family members. We aren't close at all. Maybe they are quite traditional that's why we don't communicate much ? We don't have common things to talk about. What happened ? When I see my friend's family so close to each other. You know the feeling ? When I see those family on tv so happily. You know the feeling ? Nobody can help. Including the God. Is this fair ? Two things that can kill everyone. NS and money. This two is enough to kill people. But what can we do ? Earn ? Where and how to ? Live happily ? How and where to start ? All this are so stressing me. Having headache everyday. This is killing me.

loner.

FCUKED UP!!

FCUKED UP !!

FCUKED UP !! Today went to division. After THREE times of interview. They choose me to be their secretary. F**K YOU, YOU KNOW?! IT'S SO F**KING STRESS YOU KNOW?! I was like having headache just now. Now freaking tired. NEVER HARD I SIT IN A OFFICE AND AFTER KNOCK OFF FEELING SO FUCKING TIRED !! I rather go front line than being a SA. FUCK LAH!! F**king no mood. PISSED! Have to bear with it for 1year 7months. Tomorrow training starts. KILL ME PLEASE!!

loner.

Happy Birdday to you!

Happy birdday to you!!

Yesterday went drinking again. =) Went to have dinner at Everton Road. After that went to fetch 2 friends. Headed to Vivo City. Unfortunately Powerhouse didn't open ?? Werid. Cant get in Dragonfly. So went to Windsor!! Stayed there about 1hour ? Then to Royal Club.. 3am went home!! Reach home 4am. I can't sleep till 0530. What the f**k.

Woke up at 7am. Luckily today release damn early. 1130 say bye bye to HTA. Went there did a quiz and do a survey. I felt asleep while reading halfway. Or rather say that I wanted to sleep. And the OC told me that don't pray. Want pray wait till finish reading the document then pray. -.-" So lame.

Gym later. Waiting for Mcdonal's now. I'M SO FREAKING TIRED !!

loner.

Boozer

Happy and enjoy.

Alright, yesterday after my course.. Went back home.. Monday will be my last day of course!! Then go to divison. Sighs.. Anyway, hope I will enjoy there. =) And.. Meet few friends.. Went to have dinner at erm.. I don't know what place. Forgotten already. Then off to Boozer.. Stayed till 3am+. Played Dai Dee. No alcohol to gamble. But there's green tea!! Luckily I'm not the one who drink it.

Gym later.. TRAIN HARD!!

I don't know who you are talking about. Maybe just because you are shy. But my quote is about you. I don't dare to confess anything now. Because I am not confirm with everything. Nevermind. =)

loner.

They eat eggs!

They eat eggs!!

TODAY, nothing much actually. Went cafe to have my lunch. Packed Laksa for two of my ex squadmates. Smuggle food to the coy. Good friend right. Then went back to lecture threate.

Then reached home when I open the kitchen door.. I SAW EGGS ON THE FLOOR! My dogs eat eggs!! Damn it. This is the don't know how many times already. RAW EGGS. DIE THE BOTH OF YOU. -.-" Watching 100% Entertainment. My poor idol, Xiao Zhu. Sighss..

loner.

Back !

Back to gym!

Alright.. Today is a good day. =) Reason : Released early! Nothing much. Just feeling like a big shot in HTA. =D So.. yea.

Went Lot1 for awhile. Back home.. Gym later. It has been 5 months seen I last went to gym!! STEVEN ! IM BACK !!

What is the feeling for me now ? How do I feel for you ? What ? How ? When ? QUESTION MARKS ???

loner.

alright...

Sighss...

Alright.. Posted to division. But still not sure which is my real posting. Anyway, I got what I should need it. So..... yea. =D

Went back HTA for some f*cking course. Damn it man. What for do we still need courses. There's good and bad i supposed. And... Nothing much. This evening should leave HTA early. But 2 buggers did something totally unacceptable. FUCK THEM !! Idiots. When in training they are the ones who cause trouble. NOW ALSO CAUSE TROUBLE. FUCK U LAH !! Arseholes..

Do I have another chance to fall in love with a girl ? Which girl will give me this a chance to dote her and be nice to her ? Is there ever a chance ? Sighs.. Why are there so many problems surrounding me ? Why are there so much question marks ? Sighs.. If I cannot find out the answer myself, let fate decide then. I believe god is fair to all of us. So... Will I have a chance to fall in love again ?

loner.

Secretary

Soon I will be a secretary.

Though soon I will be a secretary, but I still hope that my colleagues won't be fucked up. Like will want to cause you into trouble those kind. Anyway, I still not offical posted to my "real" division. BUT !! I DUN WANT TO SAY THE PLEDGE AND HAVE INPSECTION AND ALL THOSE SHIT!! -.-"

Got back home around 7pm. Haven had my dinner.. Well.. nvm.. Shall think of a way then. TATA!

loner.

Slack~

Chill and Slack...........

Today... slept till 12pm+ hmm.. Nothing much.. At night went dinner with parents.. After that meet up with some friends.. Went Lorong Chencharu.. Quite nice place.. Slack there.. Hmm.. Then came back.. I just love slacking around ~~

Tomorrow is Mothers' Day. I got nothing for her. Cause no money. Sighs.. What a son am I. Anyway, as long as I don't give her any problems and troubles, I think that's the biggest present for her. I wish all the mothers around the world live happily. Good health.

I guess I will be lonely till the day I die. As in I will be single. So..... yea. Good luck people!

loner.

Shiok!!

SHIOK OF THE NIGHT.

loner.

POP LOH !!

POP LOH !!

One good thing about POP. Need not stay in that freaking prison. And need not see all the fucking instructors. One bad thing. I posted to Delta Division as a SA !! FUCK !! HOPEFULLY THEY ARE ALL FRIENDLY. =D

Today's POP dinner was like fucked up. It's like.. no any special meal. freak. Was so boring and hot there in that freaking Mess. Only one performance was great. By one of the FI. We were like cheering and cheering like hooligans. Nobody's business. Laughs!! After the dinner. Went around the Coy shout POP LOH POP LOH.. They must be feeling WHAT THE FUCK SIAL. But they joined the fun together. Tomorrow back to HTA at 8am. So.. ya. =D

Monday start to work.. SIGHSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

Ok fine.. I know something already. That's it. When you need help and you need someone, I'm always there. When I need you people to be there. No one comes. Great right. =)

loner.

ehhhhhh

Whole day at home!!

Ok.. Now 0240. Sunday. Yesterday, saturday. Saturday, Afternoon went Jurong East MRT to pass some stuffs to friend. Then went Bukit Gombak. Had lunch. Then stayed at friend's house till evening. Doesn't know where to go. In the end went to Hong Kah North CC. Stayed awhile and dinner with parents. Reached back home played FM(Football Manager). Then....... watch tv.. Played Chain RXN. NOTHING NOW!!

Booking in at night. What the freak. Should I take MC ?! Or not ? DON'T KNOW!!

loner.

New prediction. 2013 End Of The World.

End Of The World.

Whole day at home. Sleep and sleep. Now feeling so energetic. Bored ! NO MONEY NO TALK.

I have been thinking alot when I'm at home................

ANYWAY,

New prediction. 2013 end of the world. Is it true ? Previous predict by professional that 2000 the earth will "vanished". Not as in the earth really disappear. Will we be in another planet or rather earth after our reincarnation? Anyway ... END OF THE WORLD. Everybody will die!! AND, we've already survived for another 9 years.. =)

So what if it is really end of the world. You cant do anything about it.

Why does we have so much neglects in our life. Why can't we live happily. Nothing is perfect. Live with no regrets. But... What actually can we satisfied ourselves. What I can say is that.. live with what we have now. We are much more fortunate than those who are not.
give more respect to the elderly. They do really care for you. Please do not take back to them, scold them, disrespect them. If one day they are not around. You will regret for life.

People, please watch a HongKong movie hmm.. the actor acting as FatCat and another one is Little Cheng. That is a very very meaningful show.

Girl, can I know how are you doing recently ? What are you busy with ? Really so busy till you cant even text me ? Do you know I miss you very much ? Seriously you are the only one that made me feel so in love with you. Where are you ? Are you avoiding me ? Sighs..

I know that we will not be together for now and ever. Can I still find another girl that let me have this kind of feeling for her ? I believe that once you are deeply in love with a girl, it's hard for you to find another same girl and have the deep feeling for the girl. So... I do not know.

Tears of the earth.

loner.