one lonely world.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Everything has changed.

Everything has changed.

What happened ? Why does things change so easily ? In relationship ? Family ? Money ? Everything changes. I doesn't want to say names. Why they voice out so loudly whenever they want ? Do they think of how I feel ? Or are they have problems troubling them ? But do they think of how I feels ? Am I a punching bag for them ? I'm a failure in everything. In relationship and all. There's no one else that will stand by me every moment whenever I need her. No one for me to dote. After enlisted to NS. My income has gone down alot. No part time for me. Can't find any part time now. No jobs for me. My NS allowance only $420. How am I going to live on with this kind of money ? Everybody is losing job now. What has this world becoming into ? GOD. Please tell me. I pray everyday. Hoping that my family would live happily. Why aren't we close to each other from young ? You changed my mood the moment I sees you. Why ? Is it because of how you treated me when I was small ? Is this the reason why I hated you so much ? I hardly talk to my family members. We aren't close at all. Maybe they are quite traditional that's why we don't communicate much ? We don't have common things to talk about. What happened ? When I see my friend's family so close to each other. You know the feeling ? When I see those family on tv so happily. You know the feeling ? Nobody can help. Including the God. Is this fair ? Two things that can kill everyone. NS and money. This two is enough to kill people. But what can we do ? Earn ? Where and how to ? Live happily ? How and where to start ? All this are so stressing me. Having headache everyday. This is killing me.

loner.