Thursday, November 19, 2009
It has been..............
It has been raining lately. Cold and cozy weather. Though I doesnt like it. But I can feel the comfort around me. Especially when my baby is by my side. I have been so paranoid now adays. What exactly is happening to me?
I made my baby cried. With all my stupidity and selfish emotion that kept to myself. And that made my baby cried. Sorry baby. I am so sorry. I love you so much. I really cannot afford to lose you. That makes me worried so much for you. I'm so lost and......... I don't know.
My mind is all about you, baby. I don't like to sweet talk. This is all from the bottom of my heart. I have confidence in this relationship. Really I do. You are the one. The one and only.
Love you so much baby.
loner.
Friday, October 23, 2009
=)
It has been so long since I last blog.
I'm very happy with my life now. Because I got someone being there for me. Though we have been together only for two months, but I can feel lots of love given from her. I really appreciate that. You willing to do what you not used to do for me. I will do whatever I think I can to make you happy.
We have alot of happy times together. But you would not know when I am pissed off. I do not wish to let you know I'm unhappy. Because I know if I show it out, you won't like it. So after awhile I will be fine. Sometimes you made me upset. Made me got angry. I will just keep quiet. I don't know why I behave like this. Not only to you. My ex-girlfriends as well as to most of my friends. This is the way I am. Whatever I do, I got my own reasons. Nobody should ask why. Because you people doesn't have to know.
Certains things can be controlled. But one insist on doing it, there am I.. I can be an attitude fuck. I am be a romance guy. I can be very fun at all times. But I also will be nasty if somebody got into my way.
I will give in all my love for you. I will try my best to bring you happiest. I love you so much baby. It's true. Hugs!!
loner.
Friday, August 21, 2009
HARD LIFE!
Don't ever injure yourself !!I'm having a hard time doing anything that need using my left hand. I can't carry heavy stuffs. I'm having difficulties typing. I'm having difficulties rotating my wrist. And I even have difficulties bathing!! DAMN! It's like my left hand so useless man! That's not cool ! There's some problem with my PPF. Have to go back to get it done by this coming Sunday. Sad. Tomorrow meeting my baby's day. =)Although my left hand has problem doing anything, I'm 100% sure that my hand does'nt have any problem holding ur little hand. =)
loner.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
=)
I want a pass!!Yesterday was on half day away from work. Met my baby and went to have lunch together. Wanted to go to the Sin Seh but it was closed. Might be going on the weekends. Dinner again with my sweet darling and back to home.This morning went despatch to PNSD. Chris drove me around the turf club to look around. It's nice there. Nice ambience thou. Rich people goes there. All the horses are kept there. It's not cheap to manage a horse in Singapore I mean. at least hundred thousand just for one bloody horse! How I wish I have half of them. Back to office. Well.. Slept in the office for 1 hour. Woke up with a great headache. I guess I can't sleep in the office.Went to book BTT at BBDC. It's on the 31/8. I WANT TO PASS MY BTT !! I cant take it anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!PS: I love my baby. =)
loner.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Suprised for myself in the gym. =)
Sprained my wrist!!Oh great! I sprained my left wrist while I was in the gym. I carried too heavy weights I guess. And now, I can't even rotate my hand. Having difficulties in doing everything! Including typing. Damn! Anyway, today was very relax in the office. How I hope that this will stay throughout my NS life till I ORD. But this not gonna happen.Biggest thing now. MONEY!! Money and money. Whatever! Don't wish to say anymore.ANYWAY,I love my darling. =)
loner.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Well............
My life is like a full of scam.What my friend always say. "My life is like a full of scam." Well, I think this applies to me as well. Everything doesn't goes on smoothly. Why is that so ? I can't find the answer. Have I did something wrong that causes me to have this kind of retribution? I guess so. Cause I believe that whatever things I should do my retributions come straight to me. Regardless of relationship or work. I doesn't like this kind of feeling. But what can I do ? Everything depends on ownself. I am so envy for alot of people. How do they cope up with these stuffs ? One day if I really have the chance I would want to interview them or do a survey. =)Baby, I hope things will stay on like how we are now. But this is not the status I wish to have. If really one day you have changed towards me, remember that I will not blame you and please don't feel guilty about it. Because this is what I chose. So darling, trust yourself. =) I have nothing but I can do whatever that I can to make you feel happy and loved.*hugs*
loner.
Hi..
Hello people.It has been so long since I last update. Well.. My office is giving me more and more problems. The freaking auditing! Nevermind. What do I have to blog. Three things are giving me a big head. Firstly of course is about my work. Second is money and third is relationship. Other than these three things, nothing can give me any problems. After I enlisted, money is a big issue for me. I'm on debts now. How am i gonna survive with this little sum of amount given by the government when we do shits for them? Does this worth for all NSF ? Do we owe this country anything ? Ya, we are here to serve the country. But for this kind of allowance ? I really don't understand why should we involve in such things. I can simply earn much more than what I'm having now. My relationship it's kinda complicated and I don't wish to talk about it. =(
loner.
